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Hello, testing.
One, two...
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Go-go juice.
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- Hi.
- Or motion lotion.
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Beaver.
Female.
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Welcome to manned
space exploration.
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The Mercury spacecraft is six feet
in diameter and nine feet tall.
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Cos I don't like your face.
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Hey.
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Hey, come 'ere.
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I want...
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I want you to see something.
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Kurt's brain was just
constantly going.
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He was always thinking
about something.
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I mean, there was always
something going on.
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You could just see it.
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Party on, Wayne.
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It was awe-inspiring, but it was like,
"Oh, well, I guess I'm not... " You know?
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"I guess I'm not all that special. "
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But, you know...
But then, as I grew up,
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I'm, like, I'm so glad I don't...
I never got that genius brain.
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Maybe he just felt praise was
hard for him to take, maybe,
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and he didn't know
how to handle that.
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So he would downplay
it all the time.
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But that was his goal, was to
get to as perfect as he could.
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As good as he could get.
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Write as well as he could,
sing as well as he could,
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play as well as he could.
And then when it all came together...
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It's so... I can't sit...
It's too painful.
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This is too painful.
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You're gonna make it, man.
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With the support of his friends
and family, he's gonna make it.
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And you see the art,
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I mean, a lot of his messages
are as plain as day.
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You just... I'm not even gonna say
what they are, but you can see it.
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And it's all there. And, you know,
in 20/20 hindsight, you're like,
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"Oh, my God, why didn't I see that?"
Or, "I should've said something. "
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But, you know, it's like...
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Some say love
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It is a river
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When I was an alien
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Cultures weren't opinions
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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When I'm there
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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A better way
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Never met a wise man
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If so, it's a woman
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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When I'm there
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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A better way
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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When I'm there
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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A better way
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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When I'm there
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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Well, America was booming after the
war and everybody had everything.
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Even if you didn't have much,
you still had enough.
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Aberdeen was a logging town
and a mill town.
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And it was booming.
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Wake up, little Susie
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You saw everybody downtown
paying their bills or shopping.
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It was a lovely, awesome place
to raise children.
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My kids loved that town.
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Wake up, little Susie, and weep
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The movie's over, it's four o'clock
and we're in trouble deep
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Wake up, little Susie
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Wake up, little Susie
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So, Don was working at a
gas station over in Hoquiam.
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You know, he had the black
horn-rimmed glasses
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and his ears kind of
stuck out a little
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and he had the crew cut,
and that's not good on anybody.
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I kind of helped him
with everything.
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He didn't really know what
he was doing with style.
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I guess, like,
we were more friends.
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I didn't know what falling in love was,
so I had never experienced it.
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So I just thought because
I liked him, I loved him.
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And so he got me an engagement
ring and we got engaged.
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You know, it was fun!
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I mean, it was like, "OK,
all those problems are behind me. "
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"Now I'm gonna have babies!"
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And I just couldn't wait
to get pregnant.
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I mean, that was the goal.
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And so I went to Dr Ehrhart
and he said, "You're so young. "
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"You just need to get... get on
your feet with being a housewife. "
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And, you know,
I just didn't listen to anybody.
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I used to think,
"Why did I marry Don Cobain?"
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And I was, like, no, everything
really did happen for a reason.
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Kurt had to be born.
It was... it was a must.
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He was the first grandchild
on both sides.
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Everybody was coming
overconstantly.
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I can't even describe
what a magnet he was.
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People just came to him.
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I was head over heels in
love with that child.
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He was so kind and so
worried about people.
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You know, if they were OK,
or if somebody got hurt.
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And then, on top of that,
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he started singing
and playing guitar.
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And once he could draw,
he drew all the time.
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- Let's sing now, Mom.
- OK. Say who you are.
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Who are you?
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Who are you, Kurt?
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Who are you?
Who are you?
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Goodbye!
I'm Kurt Cobain.
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- Yay!
- Yay! Go! Go!
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Kurt, he was full of energy.
Always busy.
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And I had this old rocking chair
in the corner of the front room.
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He'd be upside down
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with his head hanging off
where your legs would be
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and his feet up on the back
of the rocking chair
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going 90 miles an hour in it.
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Going so fast and it would be
hitting the back of the wall,
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and he'd be repeating everything
verbatim off Sesame Street.
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Would you like
to hear my voice
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Sprinkled with emotion
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And I thought,
"Before I have this next baby,
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we've gotta try to get this one
to calm down. "
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So I take him to the paediatrician,
Dr Fulton.
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He did a rapid eye movement test
with a flashlight in his eyes,
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and he went,
"OK, we got trouble here. "
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And he said, "OK,
I'm gonna give you this tablet. "
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And I believe it was
something like Ritalin.
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So I gave it to him that night and,
oh, my God!
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He just went off the rails.
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If I had to lose a mile
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If I had to touch feelings
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I would lose my soul
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The way I do
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I don't have to think
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#I only have to do it
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The results are always perfect
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And that's old news
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Would you like
to hear my voice
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#Sprinkled with emotion
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Kurt, he was hyper.
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Full of energy.
Always busy.
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You know, jumping off of things,
knocking things over.
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Anything that had to do
with being a normal child.
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And Don, he didn't know
how to handle that.
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He was one of those
kind of people
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that just thought that children
should be seen and not heard
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and shouldn't cause any trouble.
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I mean, he belittled
and ridiculed Kurt.
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And Kurt would be ashamed.
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I mean, it really hurt him
to be embarrassed.
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Then, I don't know.
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I just... I started to mature.
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You know, I started getting older,
and kind of looking back at...
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Kind of the song that may
have even stirred this in me,
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Is That All There Is?
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You know, is this my life?
I haven't done anything with my life.
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In those days,
people didn't get divorced.
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I mean, I didn't know anybody
that was divorced.
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You just... you were in the soup.
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You didn't think about divorce.
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Kurt was nine at the time.
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And everybody was
talking about it.
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It just embarrassed him to death
that we had gotten divorced.
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He took light bulbs
out of all the lights
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and locked the baby-sitter and Kim
outside and just became really unruly.
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And I said, "This is not going
to happen any more. "
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And so I took him over
to his dad's house.
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She couldn't handle him.
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So, I took him.
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I liked it, really,
you know, having him,
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him and I together like that.
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And I think there's one thing
that I said at one time
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that I was never gonna
get married again.
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And I think he took
that for a word.
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Then I met Jennifer
and we got married
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and, you know, he had a stepbrother
and a sister and then our son, Chad.
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He wanted to be in
a family, period.
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And I felt that just
from the beginning.
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The game nights that we had,
that was really important to him.
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You know, if we didn't want to do it
on a Wednesday night,
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you know, he'd say,
"Nope! We have to. That's what we... "
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He just... I could feel that he
just really liked that time,
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but he always wanted to win.
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And if he didn't win, he was mad.
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He wanted to be
the most loved
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and it just wasn't
the ideal world
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that he thought a
family should be.
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So, he just decided he wasn't
gonna do anything anybody said.
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He'd just lay on the
couch and watch TV.
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Go down in his room
and play the guitar.
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And then he started just doing
really mean things to the kids.
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And then, it just got so...
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I think it was kind of
my fault in a way
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because I couldn't deal
with it any more.
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And I told Don he was gonna
have to get out of the house.
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He went to Wendy's
brother's for a while.
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And with my mom and dad,
he even lived with them for a while,
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you know, then he'd come back
to us and still have problems.
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It was like nobody...
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After a couple of weeks,
they wanted him out.
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I think the sad part
of the whole thing
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is that Kurt just really wanted
to be with his mom.
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Underneath the bridge
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The tarp has sprung a leak
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And the animals I've trapped
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Have all become my pets
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And I'm living off of grass
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And the drippings
from the ceiling
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It's OK to eat fish
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Cos they don't
have any feelings
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Something in the way
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Something in the way, yeah
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Something in the way
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Something in the way, yeah
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He just was in so much pain
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that he, you know,
took it out on his mom
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and took it out on his dad
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and took it out
on his siblings.
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But it's almost
like he didn't...
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He didn't feel worthy because
he was rejected, basically.
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And I don't know
how anybody deals
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with having your whole family
reject you.
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Like most babies
smell like butter
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His smell smelled
like no other
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He was born scentless
and senseless
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He was born a
scentless apprentice
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Go away
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Get away
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Go away
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In a community that stresses
macho male sexual stories
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as the highlight of
all conversation,
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I was an underdeveloped,
immature little dude that never got laid
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and was constantly razzed.
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Oh, poor little kid.
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It bothered me, probably more so
because I was horny
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and frequently had to
make up stories like,
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"Oh, when I went on vacation,
I met this chick
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and we fucked and she loved it,"
etcetera, etcetera.
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This typical pubescent problem
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was an effector in the
height of my problems
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with my father and stepmom.
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You know, the typical
wicked-stepmom story.
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And so, I moved to
both grandparents'
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and four sets of aunts' and uncles'
and so forth and so on within the year.
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And in eighth grade, my mom
had no choice to take me in
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because my dad
packed my stuff
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and drove me to her house in
the morning and left me there.
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She was pissed.
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I accumulated quite a healthy complex,
not to mention a complexion.
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00:19:47,850 --> 00:19:51,752
Then one day, I discovered the most
ultimate form of expression ever:
248
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Marijuana.
Oh, boy! Pot.
249
00:19:54,982 --> 00:19:59,089
I could escape all day long and not
have routine nervous breakdowns.
250
00:20:13,042 --> 00:20:16,364
Trevor was a guy I hated but
resorted to becoming friends with
251
00:20:16,503 --> 00:20:18,949
because he was the only person
I could get pot from.
252
00:20:19,590 --> 00:20:21,535
He was the kingpin.
253
00:20:21,675 --> 00:20:23,620
Trevor, Ace, John and Darren,
254
00:20:23,761 --> 00:20:27,037
all white-trash, lowlife scum
of the earth, according to the jocks,
255
00:20:27,181 --> 00:20:31,038
had been going to this girl's house
after school, and they invited me.
256
00:20:31,185 --> 00:20:33,790
We got to the door and
a very fat girl let us in.
257
00:20:33,938 --> 00:20:35,963
It wasn't obvious to me
for over an hour
258
00:20:36,106 --> 00:20:38,085
that this girl seemed
kind of quiet
259
00:20:38,234 --> 00:20:42,136
until one of the guys pointed out
that she was in a special ed class.
260
00:20:42,571 --> 00:20:46,723
I'm sure a lot of kids would call her
a retard and some just slow,
261
00:20:46,867 --> 00:20:50,223
and at the time, and still to this day,
I would call her quiet and illiterate
262
00:20:50,371 --> 00:20:52,225
but not retarded.
263
00:20:52,748 --> 00:20:55,694
The object of the guys who had been
going there for the past month
264
00:20:55,834 --> 00:20:58,940
was to steal booze from the downstairs
basement den of her house.
265
00:20:59,672 --> 00:21:01,367
While others distracted her,
266
00:21:01,507 --> 00:21:04,579
one would go down and take a fifth
and then exit out the downstairs.
267
00:21:06,470 --> 00:21:08,415
So we'd do this routine
every otherday
268
00:21:08,555 --> 00:21:11,126
and got away with it for, oh,
about a month.
269
00:21:12,351 --> 00:21:13,545
And during that month
270
00:21:13,686 --> 00:21:16,507
happened to be the epitome of my
mental abuse from my mother.
271
00:21:17,523 --> 00:21:21,129
It turned out that pot didn't help me
escape my troubles too well any more,
272
00:21:21,277 --> 00:21:23,677
and I was actually enjoying
doing rebellious things
273
00:21:23,821 --> 00:21:26,642
like stealing booze and
busting store windows,
274
00:21:26,782 --> 00:21:27,976
and nothing ever mattered.
275
00:21:28,117 --> 00:21:29,596
I decided within the next month,
276
00:21:29,743 --> 00:21:31,847
I'll not sit on my roof
and think about jumping,
277
00:21:31,996 --> 00:21:34,942
but I'll actually kill myself.
And I wasn't going out of this world
278
00:21:35,082 --> 00:21:37,903
without actually knowing
what it was like to get laid.
279
00:21:42,047 --> 00:21:44,902
So one day after school,
I went to the girl's house alone
280
00:21:45,050 --> 00:21:47,621
and invited myself in and she
offered me some Twinkies
281
00:21:47,761 --> 00:21:50,286
and I sat on her lap
and I said, "Let's fuck. "
282
00:21:50,431 --> 00:21:52,911
And I touched her tits and
she went into her bedroom
283
00:21:53,058 --> 00:21:54,707
and got undressed in front of me,
284
00:21:54,852 --> 00:21:57,423
and I watched and realised
that it was actually happening.
285
00:21:57,563 --> 00:21:59,383
So I tried to fuck her
but didn't know how
286
00:21:59,523 --> 00:22:01,844
and asked her if she'd
ever done this before.
287
00:22:01,984 --> 00:22:04,555
And she said, "A lot of times,"
mainly with her cousin.
288
00:22:05,112 --> 00:22:06,716
I got grossed out very heavily
289
00:22:06,864 --> 00:22:10,721
with how her vagina smelled
and her sweat reeked, so I left.
290
00:22:10,868 --> 00:22:13,439
My conscience grew to where
I couldn't go to school for a week,
291
00:22:13,579 --> 00:22:16,651
and when I went back,
I got in-house suspension for skipping,
292
00:22:16,790 --> 00:22:18,485
and that day,
the girl's father came in
293
00:22:18,625 --> 00:22:21,651
screaming and accusing someone
of taking advantage of his daughter.
294
00:22:23,172 --> 00:22:25,993
And so during lunch, a rumour started,
and by the next day,
295
00:22:26,133 --> 00:22:28,738
everyone was waiting for me
to yell and cuss and spit at me,
296
00:22:28,886 --> 00:22:31,411
calling me "the retard fucker".
297
00:22:32,806 --> 00:22:34,831
I couldn't handle the ridicule,
298
00:22:34,975 --> 00:22:38,047
so I got high and drunk and
walked down to the train tracks
299
00:22:38,187 --> 00:22:41,133
and laid down and put two big pieces
of cement on my chest and legs
300
00:22:41,273 --> 00:22:43,753
and I waited for the
11 o'clock train.
301
00:22:44,568 --> 00:22:47,548
And the train came closer
and closer and closer,
302
00:22:47,696 --> 00:22:51,894
and it went on the next track
besides me instead of over me.
303
00:22:53,952 --> 00:22:56,682
The tension from school
had an effect on me
304
00:22:56,830 --> 00:22:59,560
and the train scared me enough
to try to rehabilitate myself,
305
00:22:59,708 --> 00:23:03,906
and my lifting weights and mathematics
seemed to be improving,
306
00:23:04,046 --> 00:23:05,820
so I became less manically depressed,
307
00:23:05,964 --> 00:23:08,944
but still never had any friends
because I...
308
00:23:09,093 --> 00:23:12,540
I hated everyone,
for they were so phoney.
309
00:23:35,536 --> 00:23:38,858
When Kurt was about 15,
he moved back in with Mom and I.
310
00:23:38,997 --> 00:23:40,601
It was a struggle.
311
00:23:40,749 --> 00:23:43,104
You know, it was still him
wanting to rebel
312
00:23:43,252 --> 00:23:46,358
and getting stoned and
going out with his friends
313
00:23:46,505 --> 00:23:48,985
and not wanting to,
you know, do chores
314
00:23:49,133 --> 00:23:54,036
and, you know, he was always
wanting to, like, just do his own thing.
315
00:23:55,347 --> 00:23:56,666
He wanted normalcy.
316
00:23:56,807 --> 00:23:59,628
He wanted the mom, the dad
and the kids, and everything happy.
317
00:23:59,768 --> 00:24:04,546
But then, he didn't,
cos he kinda fought against it.
318
00:24:04,690 --> 00:24:07,090
So he fought against
what he really wanted.
319
00:24:08,277 --> 00:24:11,257
- Hello? Hello?
- You still there?
320
00:24:11,405 --> 00:24:13,760
Yeah. I'm putting you on
speaker phone, though.
321
00:24:13,907 --> 00:24:16,262
OK. Are you recording this
or writing it down?
322
00:24:16,410 --> 00:24:18,059
Yeah, I'm recording and writing.
323
00:24:19,580 --> 00:24:23,186
People don't realise where we
really came from, you know?
324
00:24:23,333 --> 00:24:25,904
What an isolated
hellhole it really is.
325
00:24:26,044 --> 00:24:29,571
I mean, if witch burnings had been,
like, legal, we'd all be dead now.
326
00:24:29,715 --> 00:24:31,194
- You know?
- Fuck, yeah.
327
00:24:31,800 --> 00:24:33,870
Did you ever see that movie
"Over the Edge"?
328
00:24:34,011 --> 00:24:35,581
- Yeah!
- I mean, God!
329
00:24:35,721 --> 00:24:38,042
That movie had such
an effect on me.
330
00:24:38,182 --> 00:24:41,413
OK, you guys. You are to take
these home to your parents.
331
00:24:41,560 --> 00:24:44,131
It's to let them know about
a special emergency meeting
332
00:24:44,271 --> 00:24:46,091
to discuss the problems
about you people.
333
00:24:46,231 --> 00:24:47,300
I love that movie.
334
00:24:47,441 --> 00:24:49,341
I always wanted to do that
in front of you.
335
00:24:49,485 --> 00:24:52,932
Me, too. I tried, you know.
I wanted to be a vandal,
336
00:24:53,071 --> 00:24:56,143
and I wanted to hold everyone
captive in the school.
337
00:24:56,283 --> 00:24:58,638
Everybody that's ever messed
with me in one room.
338
00:24:58,785 --> 00:25:00,980
That'd be just about
everybody in town.
339
00:25:01,121 --> 00:25:03,225
We should go down there
and tell them all to go to hell.
340
00:25:03,373 --> 00:25:04,943
- Yeah!
- Come on, man!
341
00:25:08,587 --> 00:25:12,068
I don't know how many of us
are willing to admit
342
00:25:12,216 --> 00:25:16,323
just how deep in trouble some
of the kids in this city are.
343
00:25:22,059 --> 00:25:24,209
Has anyone ever sat down
and talked to these kids?
344
00:25:24,353 --> 00:25:27,083
I talk to them six hours a day
until I'm blue in the face.
345
00:25:27,231 --> 00:25:29,711
I spend more time with your
kids than you people do.
346
00:25:29,858 --> 00:25:31,962
You think those kids are
interested in learning?
347
00:25:32,110 --> 00:25:34,431
You ought to come in and see
what goes on in the classroom.
348
00:25:34,571 --> 00:25:36,801
Wouldn't you believe it
It's just my luck
349
00:25:37,282 --> 00:25:39,675
Wouldn't you believe it
It's just my luck
350
00:25:39,921 --> 00:25:42,534
Wouldn't you believe it
It's just my luck
351
00:25:42,889 --> 00:25:45,880
Wouldn't you believe it
It's just my luck
352
00:25:47,943 --> 00:25:49,780
No recess!
353
00:25:51,171 --> 00:25:53,196
No recess!
354
00:25:54,007 --> 00:25:55,486
No recess!
355
00:25:55,634 --> 00:25:57,784
Most of the teachers, God...
356
00:25:57,928 --> 00:26:00,453
The last couple of years of school
in the mid-eighties,
357
00:26:00,597 --> 00:26:03,248
there was so much Reagan
propaganda going on.
358
00:26:03,392 --> 00:26:06,793
This teacher would just
go off on it every day.
359
00:26:07,688 --> 00:26:10,668
Practise your piano.
360
00:26:10,816 --> 00:26:13,512
- You need practice on it.
- Go to hell!
361
00:26:13,652 --> 00:26:15,677
Burn the place to the
fucking ground.
362
00:26:15,821 --> 00:26:17,766
Yeah!
363
00:26:17,906 --> 00:26:19,555
No recess!
364
00:26:21,118 --> 00:26:23,598
No recess!
365
00:26:24,162 --> 00:26:26,062
No recess!
366
00:26:26,206 --> 00:26:28,811
High school's such a
worthless fucking nothing.
367
00:26:28,959 --> 00:26:30,859
God, what torture, you know?
368
00:26:31,003 --> 00:26:34,154
No, I quit the last two
months of school.
369
00:26:34,298 --> 00:26:36,277
I was so withdrawn
by that time,
370
00:26:36,425 --> 00:26:39,246
and I was so antisocial that I
was almost insane, you know?
371
00:26:39,386 --> 00:26:42,970
I felt so different and so crazy
that people just left me alone.
372
00:26:43,098 --> 00:26:44,827
No recess!
373
00:26:58,905 --> 00:27:00,975
Did Kurt find the underground
374
00:27:01,116 --> 00:27:02,811
or did the underground find him?
375
00:27:03,869 --> 00:27:07,020
I think he went in search of it
and I think they found each other.
376
00:27:08,123 --> 00:27:13,356
He was searching for whatever
made him feel like he wasn't alone
377
00:27:13,503 --> 00:27:15,277
and that he wasn't so different.
378
00:27:17,007 --> 00:27:19,658
When did you first
hear punk rock?
379
00:27:19,801 --> 00:27:23,202
You know, I'd wanted to
hear punk rock forever.
380
00:27:23,347 --> 00:27:26,327
Of course, they didn't have it
in our record shop in Aberdeen.
381
00:27:26,475 --> 00:27:30,206
But then finally, Buzz Osborne,
who'd been a friend of mine off and on,
382
00:27:30,354 --> 00:27:31,958
made me a couple of
compilation tapes.
383
00:27:35,067 --> 00:27:38,047
And I was completely
blown away.
384
00:27:39,363 --> 00:27:41,809
I would lip sync to those
tapes and I wore them out
385
00:27:41,948 --> 00:27:45,304
and I'd play them every day, you know.
It was the greatest thing.
386
00:27:48,288 --> 00:27:50,859
It expressed the way
I felt socially and politically
387
00:27:50,999 --> 00:27:55,231
and it was the anger that I felt,
the alienation.
388
00:27:57,673 --> 00:28:02,656
And I realised that this is what
I've always wanted to do.
389
00:28:11,645 --> 00:28:14,466
Fill me in on your new vision
390
00:28:14,606 --> 00:28:17,461
Wake me up with indecision
391
00:28:17,609 --> 00:28:20,430
Help me trust your
mighty wisdom
392
00:28:20,570 --> 00:28:23,892
Yes, I eat cow, I am not proud
393
00:28:27,285 --> 00:28:31,233
Just the fact that we were actually
playing music live in a room,
394
00:28:31,373 --> 00:28:34,979
it was amazing. It was, like,
the most incredible thing I've ever done.
395
00:28:37,087 --> 00:28:38,941
Easy in an easy chair
396
00:28:40,006 --> 00:28:41,542
Poop as hard as rock
397
00:28:43,135 --> 00:28:44,864
I don't like you anyway
398
00:28:46,096 --> 00:28:47,870
Seal it in a box
399
00:28:50,392 --> 00:28:54,123
If we played together in the
house for a couple of hours
400
00:28:54,271 --> 00:28:57,752
and if two people stopped by,
we considered that a gig, you know.
401
00:28:57,899 --> 00:28:59,628
A show.
That was good enough.
402
00:28:59,776 --> 00:29:02,097
We had an audience
of two people, you know.
403
00:29:02,237 --> 00:29:05,593
Locals who hated our guts and
thought it was terrible music.
404
00:29:17,753 --> 00:29:21,780
I think I was 18 or 19 years old
and Kurt was, like, 17.
405
00:29:22,549 --> 00:29:26,781
But he liked punk rock music, and so
that, you know, piqued my interest.
406
00:29:27,721 --> 00:29:30,121
And then I noticed
what a good artist he was.
407
00:29:30,265 --> 00:29:33,621
And so he was working
at the time as a janitor,
408
00:29:33,769 --> 00:29:36,920
but he'd always have to, like,
do some kind of art,
409
00:29:37,063 --> 00:29:39,258
usually defacing something.
410
00:29:39,900 --> 00:29:41,549
He never had, like, idle hands.
411
00:29:42,027 --> 00:29:45,053
It just came out of him.
He had to express himself.
412
00:29:48,867 --> 00:29:51,939
Well, who taught you how
to play guitar anyway?
413
00:30:21,817 --> 00:30:24,513
Brilliant.
Brilliant improvisational.
414
00:30:24,653 --> 00:30:27,099
Wow, Jerry Garcia
would really like this.
415
00:30:27,239 --> 00:30:29,343
- I'm gonna send him a tape.
- Send it to Jerry.
416
00:30:29,491 --> 00:30:32,096
You just have to sprinkle it
with patchouli orsomething.
417
00:30:32,244 --> 00:30:33,814
He'll dig right into it.
418
00:30:45,590 --> 00:30:46,943
Wait, wait, wait.
Ready?
419
00:30:50,595 --> 00:30:53,826
You alcoholics.
Film in the dark, you dick!
420
00:31:17,163 --> 00:31:19,643
Pick me, pick me, yeah
421
00:31:21,042 --> 00:31:23,363
Live alone, lone single
422
00:31:25,046 --> 00:31:28,630
At least, at least, yeah
423
00:31:28,758 --> 00:31:32,364
Everyone is hollow
424
00:31:32,512 --> 00:31:36,243
At least, at least, yeah
425
00:31:36,391 --> 00:31:39,417
Everyone is playing
426
00:31:40,395 --> 00:31:42,750
Pick me, pick me, yeah
427
00:31:44,065 --> 00:31:47,887
You can even...
428
00:31:50,530 --> 00:31:54,307
Yeah
429
00:31:54,451 --> 00:31:57,272
Dive, dive, dive
430
00:31:57,412 --> 00:32:01,940
Dive in me
431
00:32:02,334 --> 00:32:05,189
Dive, dive, dive
432
00:32:05,337 --> 00:32:08,363
Dive in me
433
00:32:09,799 --> 00:32:11,699
Dive in me
434
00:32:13,178 --> 00:32:15,078
Dive in me
435
00:32:17,098 --> 00:32:20,454
Dive in me
436
00:32:41,456 --> 00:32:44,562
He really didn't want to live
with his mom or his dad.
437
00:32:44,709 --> 00:32:46,438
He wanted to be on his own.
438
00:32:46,586 --> 00:32:49,532
So he moves into this dump.
439
00:32:49,673 --> 00:32:51,026
He wasn't making
a lot of money,
440
00:32:51,174 --> 00:32:55,907
and I think he was scared,
not being able to pay his own way.
441
00:32:56,054 --> 00:33:01,208
And in the hallway outside the apartment,
it was completely graffitied.
442
00:33:01,351 --> 00:33:04,172
Scooby Doo.
Rocky and Bullwinkle.
443
00:33:04,312 --> 00:33:06,883
But it was pornographic.
444
00:33:07,023 --> 00:33:10,254
There was just no way he was
gonna be the nine-to-five work guy
445
00:33:10,402 --> 00:33:13,132
that comes home with the briefcase
and wife cooks him dinner.
446
00:33:13,279 --> 00:33:15,474
I mean, that just wasn't ever
gonna happen.
447
00:33:15,615 --> 00:33:17,890
But he wanted some
type of connection.
448
00:33:18,034 --> 00:33:19,934
This is love, this is love.
449
00:33:20,078 --> 00:33:22,729
This is shitting and pissing
and fucking all over each other.
450
00:33:22,872 --> 00:33:24,601
Licking and spitting up
Gerber baby food.
451
00:33:24,749 --> 00:33:29,106
Not worrying if the plastic tarp
is on the floor cos, baby, this is love.
452
00:33:32,841 --> 00:33:36,868
Well, I know some people
will say that...
453
00:33:37,012 --> 00:33:39,162
that I treated Kurt maternally,
took care of him.
454
00:33:39,305 --> 00:33:41,660
But I like to think it was more
I was trying to nurture him
455
00:33:41,808 --> 00:33:43,287
rather than take care of him.
456
00:33:43,435 --> 00:33:45,835
Trying to nurture who he was
and get him to...
457
00:33:45,979 --> 00:33:47,924
let him do his art,
let him do his music
458
00:33:48,064 --> 00:33:51,648
and encourage him to get better
at it as opposed to trying to stifle it.
459
00:33:51,776 --> 00:33:54,097
But also not try to be the mom,
460
00:33:54,237 --> 00:33:59,265
but trying to be a nurturing
girlfriend or friend.
461
00:34:01,911 --> 00:34:05,495
We met at a party and, you know,
I liked him. I had a crush on him.
462
00:34:05,623 --> 00:34:07,272
And then finally
someone told him,
463
00:34:07,417 --> 00:34:09,521
"Don't you get that she likes you?"
or something.
464
00:34:09,669 --> 00:34:11,318
Cos he was just kinda
clueless about it.
465
00:34:21,848 --> 00:34:25,670
I liked that he was funny.
He made me laugh.
466
00:34:25,810 --> 00:34:28,415
He wasn't afraid to be,
you know, goofy or silly.
467
00:34:30,023 --> 00:34:33,800
But mostly we just had
a good time hanging out.
468
00:34:35,403 --> 00:34:39,055
I think he might have been a bit angry
at the way he was treated at school
469
00:34:39,199 --> 00:34:41,770
and angry with his mom
and with his dad.
470
00:34:44,412 --> 00:34:47,484
I think it was not so much that it
was hard for him to accept love
471
00:34:47,624 --> 00:34:50,855
but the fact that maybe he
was afraid of getting hurt.
472
00:34:52,921 --> 00:34:55,651
He was living in this tiny
little house in Aberdeen.
473
00:34:55,799 --> 00:34:59,383
I just said, "Why don't you just
move in with me and be in Olympia?"
474
00:34:59,511 --> 00:35:01,581
So we moved in together.
475
00:35:03,848 --> 00:35:06,078
It was nice to have someone
to share the evening with
476
00:35:06,226 --> 00:35:07,955
as well as the daytime.
477
00:35:08,103 --> 00:35:10,583
Sitting on the couch at the same time,
each reading a book.
478
00:35:10,730 --> 00:35:12,584
It was just...
you kind of felt grown up
479
00:35:12,732 --> 00:35:15,383
as opposed to just being still,
you know, a teenager.
480
00:35:42,220 --> 00:35:44,324
I'd like to think he was happy.
481
00:35:44,472 --> 00:35:46,417
We were very much
in love with each other,
482
00:35:46,558 --> 00:35:48,753
and, like I said,
I just tried to support him
483
00:35:48,893 --> 00:35:50,918
because he wanted
to be a musician.
484
00:35:51,062 --> 00:35:53,383
He wanted, you know,
to get his band going.
485
00:35:53,523 --> 00:35:56,924
He was ambitious. He didn't want to
just be playing in a bar band, you know,
486
00:35:57,068 --> 00:36:00,014
and play music that way.
He wanted to be a success.
487
00:36:00,155 --> 00:36:02,635
Good luck, good luck, man.
Good luck.
488
00:36:02,782 --> 00:36:04,556
Part the Red Seas.
489
00:36:11,791 --> 00:36:13,110
Shut the fuck up!
490
00:36:23,428 --> 00:36:26,704
Bell on door clanks, come on in
491
00:36:26,848 --> 00:36:30,124
Floyd observes my hairy chin
492
00:36:30,268 --> 00:36:33,465
Sit down in the chair,
don't be afraid
493
00:36:33,605 --> 00:36:36,927
Steamed hot towel on my face
494
00:36:39,152 --> 00:36:42,163
I was shaved
495
00:36:42,465 --> 00:36:45,629
I was shaved
496
00:36:45,856 --> 00:36:48,971
I was shaved
497
00:36:57,212 --> 00:37:00,613
Barney ties me to the chair
498
00:37:00,757 --> 00:37:04,204
I can't see, I'm really scared
499
00:37:04,344 --> 00:37:07,745
Floyd breathes hard,
I hear a zip
500
00:37:07,889 --> 00:37:10,665
Pee-pee pressed
against my lips
501
00:37:14,103 --> 00:37:17,145
I was shamed
502
00:37:17,482 --> 00:37:20,646
I was shamed
503
00:37:21,018 --> 00:37:24,750
I was shamed
504
00:37:46,302 --> 00:37:48,372
OK, thanks, everybody, for coming.
505
00:38:08,533 --> 00:38:10,387
When I met him,
he was a handyman.
506
00:38:10,535 --> 00:38:12,685
And then he got a
job as a janitor,
507
00:38:12,829 --> 00:38:16,777
cleaning, like, doctor's offices and
dentist's offices and things like that.
508
00:38:16,916 --> 00:38:22,149
But, yeah, he just ended up not
having another job after that.
509
00:38:22,797 --> 00:38:26,073
- So who would support him?
- Me.
510
00:38:26,926 --> 00:38:30,327
And what would he do all day
while you were at work?
511
00:38:30,471 --> 00:38:33,417
It was funny cos sometimes he'd just
sit there and watch TV for four hours
512
00:38:33,558 --> 00:38:34,957
and you'd think he
wasn't creating,
513
00:38:35,101 --> 00:38:38,173
but he'd be playing guitar while he was
doing that or think up stuff later
514
00:38:38,313 --> 00:38:40,668
and then you'd go out for a few
hours and you'd come back
515
00:38:40,815 --> 00:38:43,921
and there was a painting on the wall or
there's a big comic strip or whatever;
516
00:38:44,068 --> 00:38:46,673
he wrote a song, you know,
and recorded it.
517
00:38:50,199 --> 00:38:53,145
...described them
arriving at this scene...
518
00:38:53,286 --> 00:38:56,892
This is, like, fucking rad,
you know.
519
00:38:57,040 --> 00:39:00,191
Co-o-o-ol.
520
00:39:02,128 --> 00:39:04,824
Where's the m-m-m-m...
521
00:39:04,964 --> 00:39:10,197
M - m - m - m - m - m...
522
00:39:13,306 --> 00:39:16,378
I could be a girl,
she can breed me
523
00:39:16,517 --> 00:39:20,248
I can be a boy,
she could break free
524
00:39:20,396 --> 00:39:22,170
I don't even care
525
00:39:22,315 --> 00:39:23,589
We could be all three
526
00:39:23,733 --> 00:39:27,430
She said
527
00:39:27,904 --> 00:39:31,510
Warm babies on my cold feet
528
00:39:31,657 --> 00:39:33,682
at the end of my bed.
529
00:39:36,079 --> 00:39:38,309
I want you to see something.
530
00:39:38,456 --> 00:39:40,651
Shh!
They're in the house.
531
00:39:40,792 --> 00:39:42,066
They're in the house.
532
00:39:42,210 --> 00:39:44,314
Some highlights follow,
533
00:39:44,462 --> 00:39:47,784
but we warn that viewers may find
parts of the footage disturbing.
534
00:39:47,924 --> 00:39:49,619
The object of the exercise
535
00:39:49,759 --> 00:39:52,580
is to observe the monster
for as long as possible.
536
00:39:52,720 --> 00:39:55,996
Think I'll go for a walk
outside now
537
00:39:56,140 --> 00:39:58,961
The summer sun's
calling my name
538
00:40:02,647 --> 00:40:06,424
I hear you now, I just
can't stay inside all day, d-d-day
539
00:40:06,567 --> 00:40:08,467
A person who is
success-minded
540
00:40:08,611 --> 00:40:10,636
has a success consciousness and...
541
00:40:10,780 --> 00:40:14,102
- Everybody's smiling
- ... success awareness.
542
00:40:14,242 --> 00:40:15,937
Into the sunshine
543
00:40:16,661 --> 00:40:18,561
Why is that so groovy?
544
00:40:26,838 --> 00:40:30,631
She should have
been a son
545
00:40:44,272 --> 00:40:45,876
Hello?
546
00:40:46,858 --> 00:40:50,009
No, she's not.
She went to work.
547
00:40:51,529 --> 00:40:52,928
Alright.
548
00:40:59,078 --> 00:41:00,431
Bass part.
549
00:41:03,249 --> 00:41:07,606
Na, na-na na, na-na na,
na-na na
550
00:43:20,052 --> 00:43:21,826
A person who is success minded
551
00:43:21,971 --> 00:43:25,623
has a success consciousness
and suc-suc-suc-suc-suc...
552
00:43:26,517 --> 00:43:28,587
Boy, am I gonna
wake you up.
553
00:43:28,728 --> 00:43:30,582
N - N - N - N -
Now c'mon.
554
00:43:30,730 --> 00:43:33,802
You know this is really the
best way to start your day.
555
00:43:33,941 --> 00:43:36,842
Now don't think about anything else
but getting that body in shape
556
00:43:36,986 --> 00:43:38,305
cos you deserve it.
557
00:43:38,446 --> 00:43:41,768
Now hold the stomach in. C'mon.
Gimme some good posture.
558
00:43:41,907 --> 00:43:44,762
Hold your head up high.
Tighten those buns.
559
00:43:44,910 --> 00:43:49,358
Get ready because this is for you!
560
00:44:01,302 --> 00:44:03,372
She said she'd take
me anywhere
561
00:44:03,512 --> 00:44:05,286
She'd take me anywhere
562
00:44:05,431 --> 00:44:06,967
#As long as she stays with me
563
00:44:07,099 --> 00:44:09,169
She said she'd take
me anywhere
564
00:44:09,310 --> 00:44:10,880
She'd take me anywhere
565
00:44:11,020 --> 00:44:12,669
As long as I stayed clean
566
00:44:12,813 --> 00:44:15,356
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
567
00:44:15,646 --> 00:44:18,320
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
568
00:44:18,540 --> 00:44:21,178
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
569
00:44:21,483 --> 00:44:24,316
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
570
00:44:25,863 --> 00:44:28,189
This song has two notes.
571
00:44:31,707 --> 00:44:33,311
That's it.
572
00:44:33,459 --> 00:44:35,905
This note and this note.
573
00:44:47,264 --> 00:44:49,494
She said she'd take
me anywhere
574
00:44:49,684 --> 00:44:51,003
She'd take me anywhere
575
00:44:51,143 --> 00:44:52,792
As long as she stays with me
576
00:44:52,937 --> 00:44:55,292
She said she'd take
me anywhere
577
00:44:55,439 --> 00:44:56,758
She'd take me anywhere
578
00:44:56,899 --> 00:44:58,673
As long as I stayed clean
579
00:44:58,818 --> 00:45:01,371
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
580
00:45:01,510 --> 00:45:04,112
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
581
00:45:04,376 --> 00:45:07,024
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
582
00:45:07,255 --> 00:45:09,908
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
583
00:45:10,175 --> 00:45:12,754
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
584
00:45:12,917 --> 00:45:15,659
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
585
00:45:15,860 --> 00:45:18,522
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
586
00:45:18,786 --> 00:45:23,162
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
587
00:45:35,438 --> 00:45:38,339
Look at these losers.
588
00:45:38,482 --> 00:45:41,508
Bunch of long-haired
fuckin' sissies, man.
589
00:45:46,782 --> 00:45:48,511
Hi, my name is Dana.
590
00:45:48,659 --> 00:45:53,141
I caught Nirvana in their dressing
room on their recent tour.
591
00:45:53,289 --> 00:45:55,393
At what point are you
on this tour right now?
592
00:45:55,541 --> 00:45:58,567
We're at the point of
kicking each other's ass.
593
00:45:58,711 --> 00:46:01,657
I would imagine that the constant
party atmosphere on the road
594
00:46:01,797 --> 00:46:04,243
would create a great deal of
physical and mental stress.
595
00:46:04,383 --> 00:46:05,611
How do you deal with it?
596
00:46:05,760 --> 00:46:09,457
We prepared for the rock and
roll lifestyle. We can kick it, man.
597
00:46:09,597 --> 00:46:12,498
You know what? We should move in
our stuff before it starts raining.
598
00:46:12,641 --> 00:46:14,085
Yeah.
599
00:46:15,144 --> 00:46:18,875
A hundred percent humidity
here in Fort Worth, Texas.
600
00:46:19,023 --> 00:46:20,877
Does success ever frighten you?
601
00:46:21,025 --> 00:46:23,380
Go in the van!
Hey!
602
00:46:23,527 --> 00:46:26,473
No, because we actually want
to become more successful
603
00:46:26,614 --> 00:46:28,844
so we can have a
comfortable life.
604
00:46:33,829 --> 00:46:35,399
OK, man.
Take it away, buddy.
605
00:46:35,539 --> 00:46:39,487
Don't worry about me. I know this is
kind of a strange angle, but it'll work.
606
00:46:41,545 --> 00:46:45,868
Yes. That's a big camera, man.
That's not...
607
00:46:46,425 --> 00:46:49,656
How would you describe the music
you play and the things you do?
608
00:46:49,804 --> 00:46:53,001
Well, the things we do is just,
609
00:46:53,140 --> 00:46:57,247
we play a very powerful,
high-energy type of rock and roll.
610
00:46:57,394 --> 00:47:01,216
We move around on
stage a lot, and...
611
00:47:01,357 --> 00:47:04,838
Just scream with an abandon,
I guess.
612
00:47:04,985 --> 00:47:06,805
What makes you
want to be Nirvana?
613
00:47:06,946 --> 00:47:09,176
What makes us want
to be Nirvana?
614
00:47:09,323 --> 00:47:13,271
We're Nirvana because we're
not Aerosmith or something.
615
00:47:13,410 --> 00:47:17,141
Or the Vegetables.
Or...
616
00:47:18,582 --> 00:47:20,311
What's the future of Nirvana?
617
00:47:20,459 --> 00:47:23,314
The future of Nirvana?
I don't know.
618
00:47:23,462 --> 00:47:25,692
Hopefully try to write
some more good songs.
619
00:47:25,840 --> 00:47:27,944
That's all we care about
is writing good music.
620
00:47:28,092 --> 00:47:31,744
If we get popular or not,
it doesn't matter.
621
00:47:31,887 --> 00:47:34,788
The music's more important.
622
00:47:34,932 --> 00:47:38,038
We don't have any more songs,
so this is the last one.
623
00:48:01,584 --> 00:48:07,159
Would you believe me when I tell you
You are the queen of my heart?
624
00:48:08,090 --> 00:48:11,116
Please don't deceive me
when I hurt you
625
00:48:11,260 --> 00:48:13,785
Just ain't the way it seems
626
00:48:15,472 --> 00:48:18,678
Can you feel my love buzz?
627
00:49:16,283 --> 00:49:20,606
I remember the first review
Nirvana ever got
628
00:49:20,746 --> 00:49:24,227
was for the Love Buzz/Big Cheese
single we did,
629
00:49:24,375 --> 00:49:28,527
and it was in this hip magazine out of
Michigan these scenesters were doing,
630
00:49:28,671 --> 00:49:30,320
and they gave us
a bad review.
631
00:49:30,464 --> 00:49:33,786
They said it was like Lynyrd
Skynyrd but without the flares.
632
00:49:33,926 --> 00:49:37,453
Kurt was really hurt with that
and he was telling me that.
633
00:49:37,596 --> 00:49:40,121
He goes... And I said,
"Don't worry about it. "
634
00:49:40,265 --> 00:49:43,587
"That's just... they're just scenesters,
they're hipsters or... "
635
00:49:43,727 --> 00:49:45,376
You know, "Screw them!"
or whatever.
636
00:49:45,521 --> 00:49:49,673
But, you know,
Kurt hated being humiliated.
637
00:49:49,817 --> 00:49:51,170
He hated it.
638
00:49:51,318 --> 00:49:52,797
He hated it!
639
00:49:52,945 --> 00:49:58,178
If he ever thought he was humiliated,
then you'd see the rage come out.
640
00:49:59,368 --> 00:50:01,598
And so he was also
very careful about,
641
00:50:01,745 --> 00:50:06,023
and stubborn about how the way the
art and the work was presented
642
00:50:06,166 --> 00:50:07,940
because he didn't want
to be humiliated.
643
00:50:08,085 --> 00:50:11,612
I could be humiliated, like...
I humiliate myself or whatever.
644
00:50:11,755 --> 00:50:14,576
But not Kurt.
No.
645
00:50:25,102 --> 00:50:27,297
He had really violent
dreams a lot.
646
00:50:27,438 --> 00:50:29,884
People would be breaking
into his house, trying to kill him,
647
00:50:30,024 --> 00:50:31,173
and he'd have to stab them.
648
00:50:31,316 --> 00:50:33,887
Once in a while it might be his
family who was trying to kill him.
649
00:50:34,028 --> 00:50:35,427
But that was just really rare.
650
00:50:35,571 --> 00:50:39,177
Usually it was someone else coming
after him that he didn't know.
651
00:50:39,324 --> 00:50:41,929
I asked... I thought he should
try to talk to someone,
652
00:50:42,077 --> 00:50:45,661
but without, you know, much money,
that really wasn't gonna happen.
653
00:50:50,335 --> 00:50:54,863
Kurt would get stomach aches
a lot and say his stomach hurt.
654
00:50:55,007 --> 00:50:57,532
You know, he'd be feeling fine
and then he'd get out of the car
655
00:50:57,676 --> 00:51:00,122
and just be, like,
"I gotta throw up. "
656
00:51:00,262 --> 00:51:04,540
I know he went to the doctor once
or twice, but it didn't really work.
657
00:51:10,689 --> 00:51:13,135
Most of the time,
I sing right from my stomach.
658
00:51:13,275 --> 00:51:15,675
Right where my stomach pain is.
659
00:51:17,196 --> 00:51:20,677
Every time I've had an endoscope,
they'd find a red irritation.
660
00:51:26,163 --> 00:51:28,609
I would sing and cough up blood.
661
00:51:28,749 --> 00:51:31,354
It's, like, this is no way
to live a life.
662
00:51:31,502 --> 00:51:35,575
I love to play music but
something's not right.
663
00:51:35,714 --> 00:51:37,614
So I decided to medicate myself.
664
00:52:06,411 --> 00:52:08,356
How much of that
pain would you say
665
00:52:08,497 --> 00:52:10,897
actually fuels what you're
writing and playing?
666
00:52:11,041 --> 00:52:12,815
See, that's a scary question
667
00:52:12,960 --> 00:52:16,862
because I think it probably helps,
you know.
668
00:52:17,005 --> 00:52:21,203
But I would give up everything
to have good health.
669
00:52:21,343 --> 00:52:26,872
But then again, I'm always afraid
that if I lost the stomach problem,
670
00:52:27,015 --> 00:52:29,916
I might not be as creative.
671
00:52:32,104 --> 00:52:35,301
There's a journal entry where
Kurt mentions doing heroin
672
00:52:35,440 --> 00:52:39,024
for the first time in 1987
when he was living with you.
673
00:52:39,153 --> 00:52:40,347
See, he never told me that.
674
00:52:40,487 --> 00:52:43,684
He totally had kept that from me cos
I totally would've talked him out of it.
675
00:52:43,824 --> 00:52:46,270
In fact, he used to make fun of
some of the people in Seattle
676
00:52:46,410 --> 00:52:49,561
that were using that and
say it was really stupid.
677
00:52:49,705 --> 00:52:52,651
Cos I've been told before that he
was doing it when we were dating,
678
00:52:52,791 --> 00:52:56,443
but I'm, like, he didn't do
it around me, ever.
679
00:52:56,587 --> 00:52:59,158
I never found anything, so...
680
00:53:08,432 --> 00:53:10,206
I can't really say exactly
why we broke up.
681
00:53:10,350 --> 00:53:12,045
I just know that we
were fighting more
682
00:53:12,186 --> 00:53:15,792
and he was staying away
from the house more.
683
00:53:15,939 --> 00:53:19,261
I think he just pretty much didn't
love me as much as he used to.
684
00:53:19,401 --> 00:53:23,553
Or felt... He just felt like maybe
he was moving ahead and I wasn't.
685
00:53:31,788 --> 00:53:33,892
Kurt Cobain's here.
686
00:53:34,041 --> 00:53:36,771
You know,
Kurt Cobain from Aberdeen.
687
00:53:38,212 --> 00:53:41,488
- What's going on, baby?
- Not a damn thing.
688
00:53:41,632 --> 00:53:44,112
You called up and said,
"I wanna play some songs. "
689
00:53:44,259 --> 00:53:46,489
So I said, "Rockin' good news!"
690
00:53:46,637 --> 00:53:48,411
Bloody brilliant!
691
00:53:49,598 --> 00:53:51,919
I just wrote most of the lyrics
this evening.
692
00:53:52,059 --> 00:53:55,506
- In the car, on the way up here?
- While I was driving with one foot.
693
00:53:55,646 --> 00:53:58,752
- Uh-huh?
- Yeah, that's what I did.
694
00:53:58,899 --> 00:54:01,754
I just thought I would just
come here and say hi.
695
00:54:01,902 --> 00:54:03,676
Well, let her rip.
696
00:54:06,406 --> 00:54:09,682
OK, is there any major-label
interest in you at the present?
697
00:54:09,826 --> 00:54:11,521
- Can you say?
- Not at the moment.
698
00:54:11,662 --> 00:54:14,017
Anybody not affiliated with CBS.
699
00:54:14,164 --> 00:54:15,734
Would you consider changing?
700
00:54:15,874 --> 00:54:19,571
We're considering it because we
wanna get as much as we can.
701
00:54:21,421 --> 00:54:23,400
Well, you're this
interesting mix of,
702
00:54:23,548 --> 00:54:25,903
as you say, you're one of the
laziest people you know,
703
00:54:26,051 --> 00:54:28,906
but you're also ambitious
for a lazy person.
704
00:54:29,054 --> 00:54:30,498
You think so?
705
00:54:33,642 --> 00:54:36,293
How does it feel to be surrounded
by so many people
706
00:54:36,436 --> 00:54:39,462
telling you that you soon
are doing very well?
707
00:54:39,606 --> 00:54:43,713
I think it's embarrassing to
have so many expectations.
708
00:54:43,860 --> 00:54:45,964
A totally superficial label
to put on a band,
709
00:54:46,113 --> 00:54:48,434
to state that they're
the next big thing.
710
00:54:48,573 --> 00:54:51,269
Because, you know,
that's not our goal in the first place.
711
00:54:51,410 --> 00:54:56,063
People are putting that tag on us
without us really wanting to do that.
712
00:54:56,206 --> 00:54:57,685
You're not prepared forthat?
713
00:54:57,833 --> 00:55:00,654
Not prepared? Nope.
Because we're not going to be.
714
00:55:00,794 --> 00:55:04,742
We're prepared to destroy
our careers if it happens.
715
00:55:08,510 --> 00:55:10,239
I'm so happy
716
00:55:10,387 --> 00:55:13,993
Cos today I've found my friends
717
00:55:14,141 --> 00:55:16,120
They're in my head
718
00:55:16,268 --> 00:55:18,042
I'm so ugly
719
00:55:18,186 --> 00:55:21,963
But that's OK, cos so are you
720
00:55:22,107 --> 00:55:23,756
We've broken our mirrors
721
00:55:23,900 --> 00:55:25,800
Sunday morning
722
00:55:25,944 --> 00:55:29,266
Is everyday for all I care
723
00:55:29,406 --> 00:55:31,727
And I'm not scared
724
00:55:31,867 --> 00:55:33,687
Light my candles
725
00:55:33,827 --> 00:55:36,933
In a daze cos I've found God
726
00:55:37,080 --> 00:55:39,942
Yeah, yeah, yeah
727
00:55:40,868 --> 00:55:44,238
Yeah, yeah, yeah
728
00:55:44,741 --> 00:55:47,285
Yeah, yeah, yeah
729
00:55:48,652 --> 00:55:52,157
Yeah, yeah, yeah
730
00:55:52,511 --> 00:55:55,982
Yeah, yeah, yeah
731
00:55:56,358 --> 00:56:00,277
Yeah, yeah, yeah
732
00:56:00,597 --> 00:56:02,243
Yeah
733
00:56:02,784 --> 00:56:04,677
I'm so lonely
734
00:56:04,750 --> 00:56:08,609
But that's OK,
I shaved my head
735
00:56:08,737 --> 00:56:10,682
And I'm not sad
736
00:56:10,822 --> 00:56:12,642
And just maybe
737
00:56:12,783 --> 00:56:16,514
I'm to blame for all I've heard
738
00:56:16,661 --> 00:56:18,105
But I'm not sure
739
00:56:18,246 --> 00:56:19,270
I'm so excited
740
00:56:19,414 --> 00:56:22,941
I am Kurt.
I play guitar and I sing.
741
00:56:23,085 --> 00:56:24,985
And I am Dave.
And I play drums.
742
00:56:25,128 --> 00:56:27,608
And I sing sometimes
but not that often.
743
00:56:27,756 --> 00:56:29,781
I'm Chris and I play bass.
744
00:56:29,925 --> 00:56:31,244
And I don't sing, thank God!
745
00:56:31,593 --> 00:56:37,452
Yeah, yeah, yeah
746
00:56:37,599 --> 00:56:40,750
Alright, Nirvana's joined us in the
studio tonight. New Music Hour.
747
00:56:40,894 --> 00:56:44,421
We've got Krist Novoselic,
we've got Kurt Cobain and Dave Grohl.
748
00:56:44,564 --> 00:56:48,261
Their upcoming release Nevermind
comes out the 24th of this month,
749
00:56:48,402 --> 00:56:50,222
and you guys'll be
doing an in-store
750
00:56:50,362 --> 00:56:53,138
at the Beehive Music and Video
in the University District.
751
00:56:53,281 --> 00:56:55,932
So go out, meet the band.
That's at seven to nine.
752
00:56:57,160 --> 00:57:00,891
I like it,
I'm not gonna crack
753
00:57:01,039 --> 00:57:04,736
I miss you,
I'm not gonna crack
754
00:57:04,876 --> 00:57:08,698
I love you,
I'm not gonna crack
755
00:57:08,839 --> 00:57:12,570
I killed you,
I'm not gonna crack
756
00:57:12,717 --> 00:57:16,448
I like it,
I'm not gonna crack
757
00:57:16,596 --> 00:57:20,373
I miss you,
I'm not gonna crack
758
00:57:20,517 --> 00:57:23,951
I love you,
I'm not gonna crack
759
00:57:24,156 --> 00:57:25,603
I killed you,
760
00:57:25,691 --> 00:57:31,227
I'm not gonna crack
761
00:57:39,119 --> 00:57:43,317
End of July or August, he's home.
762
00:57:43,457 --> 00:57:46,483
And he comes downstairs and
he's in his little whitey tighties.
763
00:57:46,626 --> 00:57:48,651
No shirt.
Barefoot.
764
00:57:48,795 --> 00:57:52,947
No pants other than his undies and...
Very Don Cobain.
765
00:57:53,091 --> 00:57:55,070
That's anotherthing
I got sick of looking at.
766
00:57:55,218 --> 00:57:58,073
And he's standing there with this tape
in his hand. I go, "What's that?"
767
00:57:58,221 --> 00:58:01,201
And he goes, "It's the master cut
to my new album. "
768
00:58:01,349 --> 00:58:02,543
"Can I put it on the stereo?"
769
00:58:02,684 --> 00:58:04,629
And I go,
"Yeah! And turn it up! Up, up, up. "
770
00:58:04,769 --> 00:58:06,748
Because I listen to
music really loud.
771
00:58:06,897 --> 00:58:10,378
And I look at him and I go,
"Oh, my God!"
772
00:58:10,525 --> 00:58:12,880
"Oh, my God!"
And I almost start crying.
773
00:58:13,028 --> 00:58:17,977
I mean, not from happiness.
From fear. It was fear.
774
00:58:18,575 --> 00:58:20,155
And I just went...
775
00:58:20,802 --> 00:58:25,698
"This is going to
change everything. "
776
00:58:25,727 --> 00:58:27,821
And I said...
777
00:58:28,398 --> 00:58:32,974
"You better buckle up,
cos you are not ready for this. "
778
00:58:41,306 --> 00:58:44,127
And for someone like yourself,
when you're, sort of,
779
00:58:44,267 --> 00:58:45,666
let's say your dreams come true,
780
00:58:45,810 --> 00:58:48,540
all the worst aspects of them
come true as well.
781
00:58:48,688 --> 00:58:52,340
It's, like, be careful what you wish for.
You're gonna get it.
782
00:58:52,484 --> 00:58:53,508
Yeah.
783
00:58:53,652 --> 00:58:58,009
How do you sort of deal
with the pull-apart;
784
00:58:58,156 --> 00:59:00,681
you know, being pulled apart
by stuff like that?
785
00:59:01,993 --> 00:59:04,268
I don't know if I expressed
that the right way or not.
786
00:59:04,412 --> 00:59:05,891
Well...
787
00:59:07,123 --> 00:59:08,351
Er...
788
00:59:15,173 --> 00:59:19,200
Load up on guns
789
00:59:19,344 --> 00:59:21,824
Bring your friends
790
00:59:21,972 --> 00:59:25,328
It's fun to lose
791
00:59:25,475 --> 00:59:28,831
And to pretend
792
00:59:28,979 --> 00:59:32,210
She's over-bored
793
00:59:32,357 --> 00:59:35,679
And self-assured
794
00:59:35,819 --> 00:59:37,343
Oh no,
795
00:59:37,374 --> 00:59:42,461
I know a dirty word
796
00:59:42,554 --> 00:59:46,353
Hello, hello
797
00:59:46,496 --> 00:59:50,023
Hello, how low?
798
00:59:50,166 --> 00:59:53,772
Hello, hello
799
00:59:53,920 --> 00:59:57,321
Hello, how low?
800
00:59:57,465 --> 01:00:02,073
Hello, hello
801
01:00:02,429 --> 01:00:05,910
With the lights out
802
01:00:06,057 --> 01:00:09,504
It's less dangerous
803
01:00:09,644 --> 01:00:12,966
Here we are now
804
01:00:13,106 --> 01:00:16,507
Entertain us
805
01:00:16,651 --> 01:00:20,052
I feel stupid
806
01:00:20,196 --> 01:00:23,643
And contagious
807
01:00:23,783 --> 01:00:27,139
Here we are now
808
01:00:27,287 --> 01:00:30,768
Entertain us
809
01:00:30,915 --> 01:00:34,362
A mulatto
810
01:00:34,502 --> 01:00:38,086
An albino
811
01:00:38,214 --> 01:00:41,798
A mosquito
812
01:00:41,926 --> 01:00:45,703
My libido
813
01:00:46,028 --> 01:00:48,880
A denial
814
01:00:49,203 --> 01:00:52,787
A denial
815
01:00:53,354 --> 01:00:56,778
A denial
816
01:00:57,200 --> 01:01:00,892
A denial
817
01:01:01,342 --> 01:01:05,793
A denial
818
01:01:06,056 --> 01:01:10,380
A denial
819
01:01:15,710 --> 01:01:17,905
OK, and cut.
820
01:01:19,464 --> 01:01:21,034
Alright, that's a wrap.
821
01:01:33,436 --> 01:01:39,196
Hey, man, if this bird goes down,
this is the safest place to be.
822
01:01:39,734 --> 01:01:43,215
Right in the tail,
where the bathroom is.
823
01:01:44,656 --> 01:01:46,430
As soon as you walked
on this plane
824
01:01:46,574 --> 01:01:50,226
I took one gander at you and
I saw nothing but trouble.
825
01:01:50,370 --> 01:01:52,315
Ha!
Bah!
826
01:01:52,455 --> 01:01:53,934
See if you can try and do it.
827
01:01:54,082 --> 01:01:58,280
Me and my sidekick Tree Frog Johnson
here is gonna rip you a new butthole.
828
01:01:58,503 --> 01:02:01,279
- Is this time ourtime?
- What a sensitive man.
829
01:02:01,423 --> 01:02:03,744
Cos it says it's, like,
almost three in the morning.
830
01:02:03,883 --> 01:02:06,363
Time flies when you're
having fun.
831
01:02:29,784 --> 01:02:31,729
I don't care,
I don't care, I don't care
832
01:02:31,870 --> 01:02:35,351
I don't care, care,
care if it's old
833
01:02:35,498 --> 01:02:37,523
I don't mind,
I don't mind, I don't mind
834
01:02:37,667 --> 01:02:41,114
I don't mind, mind,
don't have a mind
835
01:02:41,254 --> 01:02:43,324
Get away, get away,
get away
836
01:02:43,465 --> 01:02:46,866
Get away, away,
away from your home
837
01:02:47,010 --> 01:02:49,080
I'm afraid, I'm afraid,
I'm afraid
838
01:02:49,220 --> 01:02:52,292
I'm afraid, afraid of a ghost
839
01:02:52,432 --> 01:02:53,785
Even if you have
840
01:02:53,933 --> 01:02:54,957
Even if you need
841
01:02:55,101 --> 01:02:56,580
I don't mean to stare
842
01:02:56,728 --> 01:02:58,264
We don't have to breed
843
01:02:58,396 --> 01:02:59,670
We could plant a house
844
01:02:59,814 --> 01:03:01,213
We could build a tree
845
01:03:01,357 --> 01:03:02,710
I don't even care
846
01:03:02,859 --> 01:03:04,929
We could have all three,
she said
847
01:03:05,069 --> 01:03:06,093
99 X.
848
01:03:06,237 --> 01:03:08,182
That Nirvana stuff you
played last night?
849
01:03:08,323 --> 01:03:11,303
If I wanted to request one of their
songs now, could you play it?
850
01:03:11,451 --> 01:03:14,352
You don't have any bootleg
CDs of Nirvana?
851
01:03:14,496 --> 01:03:16,100
Could you play some Nirvana?
852
01:03:16,247 --> 01:03:18,602
Right here, a world premiere video
from Nirvana.
853
01:03:18,750 --> 01:03:19,944
Smells Like Teen Spirit.
854
01:03:21,920 --> 01:03:23,239
Even if you have
855
01:03:23,379 --> 01:03:24,732
Even if you need
856
01:03:24,881 --> 01:03:26,234
I don't mean to stare
857
01:03:26,382 --> 01:03:27,861
We don't have to breed
858
01:03:28,009 --> 01:03:29,203
What do we say?
859
01:03:29,344 --> 01:03:32,074
We're Nirvana and this
is The Week in Rock.
860
01:03:34,057 --> 01:03:36,753
Hey, all you people staying
up late on a Sunday night.
861
01:03:36,893 --> 01:03:38,793
Slack off!
You don't need your job.
862
01:03:38,937 --> 01:03:42,839
Don't say, "Yes, sir. Yes, ma'am. "
Say, "Cram it!"
863
01:03:42,982 --> 01:03:46,088
Don't show up tomorrow,
call in sick, cos this is Nirvana,
864
01:03:46,236 --> 01:03:48,557
- and you're watching...
- 120 Minutes.
865
01:03:48,696 --> 01:03:51,301
- On...
- MTTV.
866
01:04:02,877 --> 01:04:04,105
Even if you have
867
01:04:04,254 --> 01:04:05,573
Even if you need
868
01:04:05,713 --> 01:04:07,066
I don't mean to stare
869
01:04:07,215 --> 01:04:08,489
We don't have to breed
870
01:04:08,633 --> 01:04:09,986
We could plant a house
871
01:04:10,134 --> 01:04:11,453
We could build a tree
872
01:04:11,594 --> 01:04:12,913
I don't even care
873
01:04:13,054 --> 01:04:15,625
We could have all three,
she said
874
01:04:15,765 --> 01:04:19,997
She said
875
01:04:20,144 --> 01:04:23,250
The hottest new rock band in the country
right now may well be Nirvana.
876
01:04:23,398 --> 01:04:24,968
The hottest band
at the moment.
877
01:04:25,108 --> 01:04:27,258
The band it seems everybody's
talking about.
878
01:04:27,402 --> 01:04:30,348
People, like, really seem to be
getting into Nirvana right now.
879
01:04:30,488 --> 01:04:32,058
Do you see when you go out
and play shows
880
01:04:32,198 --> 01:04:33,927
that the crowds are
getting different?
881
01:04:34,075 --> 01:04:37,932
- Isn't it pretty overwhelming?
- Everybody wants to be hip.
882
01:04:38,079 --> 01:04:40,809
- And so that's what it is, then?
- Everyone wants to be accepted.
883
01:05:03,855 --> 01:05:06,551
Yeah?
OK. Cool.
884
01:05:06,691 --> 01:05:10,297
I've just heard that you've sold
600,000 albums in the United States.
885
01:05:10,445 --> 01:05:12,470
Does that make it platinum,
something like that?
886
01:05:12,614 --> 01:05:14,150
It makes it gold.
887
01:05:14,282 --> 01:05:17,137
It makes it a free gift to
my motherfor Christmas.
888
01:05:17,285 --> 01:05:18,934
- Exactly!
- Don't have to pay for a gift.
889
01:05:19,078 --> 01:05:22,229
What's Mom getting for Christmas?
I guess she's getting a gold record.
890
01:05:22,373 --> 01:05:24,728
Does that mean you guys
are, like, rich now?
891
01:05:24,876 --> 01:05:29,904
Hell, no! We're so far
from having any money.
892
01:05:30,048 --> 01:05:32,619
I mean, we get per diem, I guess.
893
01:05:32,759 --> 01:05:34,579
Do you care what critics think?
894
01:05:34,719 --> 01:05:37,244
I've never heard as many
sort of glowing criticism...
895
01:05:37,388 --> 01:05:40,585
- Oh, glowing!
- Does that make you feel good?
896
01:05:40,725 --> 01:05:44,582
Well, I mean, it's better than
being slammed, that's forsure.
897
01:05:44,729 --> 01:05:45,753
But, you know,
898
01:05:45,897 --> 01:05:49,424
if I was reading the same thing about
another band, I wouldn't believe it.
899
01:05:49,567 --> 01:05:50,591
No way.
900
01:05:50,735 --> 01:05:52,714
I'm not gonna believe
some journalist
901
01:05:53,512 --> 01:05:59,188
that's just spewing about some band
that he thinks changed his life or...
902
01:06:00,244 --> 01:06:01,893
You can't believe
everything you read.
903
01:06:02,038 --> 01:06:05,815
I mean, all you have to do is...
Music is a personal experience.
904
01:06:05,959 --> 01:06:09,656
You put the music on and
whatever you get out of it,
905
01:06:09,796 --> 01:06:11,115
you know, if it's good or bad.
906
01:06:11,255 --> 01:06:14,611
If it's bad, you don't like it,
you just walk away from it, you know.
907
01:06:14,759 --> 01:06:17,034
And if it's good,
it works for you...
908
01:06:17,720 --> 01:06:20,700
- You know this lighter...
- What the hell.
909
01:06:26,854 --> 01:06:29,379
There are probably a lot of kids
who hear your songs
910
01:06:29,524 --> 01:06:32,755
and actually feel, like, kinship,
911
01:06:32,902 --> 01:06:36,053
whether you're having trouble
with parents or with school
912
01:06:36,197 --> 01:06:39,644
or, you know, the usual
dysfunctional stuff that happens.
913
01:06:39,784 --> 01:06:41,012
But when you're up there,
914
01:06:41,160 --> 01:06:43,811
do you have any sense
of who you're playing to?
915
01:06:43,955 --> 01:06:46,526
I'm playing to kids in general.
916
01:06:46,666 --> 01:06:49,738
I mean, it doesn't matter
where they come from.
917
01:06:49,877 --> 01:06:51,526
We have the same problems
918
01:06:51,671 --> 01:06:54,777
and we all basically have the
same thoughts, you know?
919
01:07:09,939 --> 01:07:13,386
One baby to another says
920
01:07:13,526 --> 01:07:17,110
I'm lucky to have met you
921
01:07:17,238 --> 01:07:19,968
I don't care what you think
922
01:07:20,116 --> 01:07:23,017
Unless it is about me
923
01:07:24,078 --> 01:07:29,835
It is now my duty to
completely drain you
924
01:07:31,066 --> 01:07:33,823
I travel through a tube
925
01:07:33,963 --> 01:07:36,739
And end up in your infection
926
01:07:39,302 --> 01:07:42,078
Chew your meat for you
927
01:07:42,221 --> 01:07:45,497
Pass it back and forth
928
01:07:45,641 --> 01:07:48,997
In a passionate kiss
929
01:07:49,145 --> 01:07:51,796
From my mouth to yours
930
01:07:51,939 --> 01:07:54,134
I like you
931
01:07:54,275 --> 01:07:57,301
You guys don't like explaining
anything to do with your music.
932
01:07:57,445 --> 01:07:59,595
What's the problem with
going on camera and just...
933
01:07:59,739 --> 01:08:02,139
There's nothing to be said.
It's all in the music, man.
934
01:08:02,283 --> 01:08:04,387
It's all in the music.
It's all in the meat!
935
01:08:04,535 --> 01:08:06,810
You don't think that people
that are fans of you
936
01:08:06,954 --> 01:08:10,151
would like to hear what you had
in mind, maybe? Or what you were...
937
01:08:10,291 --> 01:08:13,021
I'd rather hear what they
have in mind, you know?
938
01:08:13,169 --> 01:08:14,864
Like, how they interpret it.
939
01:08:18,841 --> 01:08:21,036
In Teen Spirit,
you seem to complain
940
01:08:21,177 --> 01:08:23,077
about the apathy
of our generation.
941
01:08:23,221 --> 01:08:25,997
And do you share this lack
of engagement yourself?
942
01:08:26,140 --> 01:08:28,415
- What, being apathetic?
- Yeah.
943
01:08:28,559 --> 01:08:31,414
- Sure.
- Why?
944
01:08:31,562 --> 01:08:35,510
Why?
Because we sleep too much.
945
01:08:39,487 --> 01:08:43,309
- I mean, just say it.
- Just read it.
946
01:08:43,908 --> 01:08:46,103
Hello!
Stay tuned for more...
947
01:08:46,244 --> 01:08:51,477
...ew, Nirvana on ABC in concert!
948
01:08:51,624 --> 01:08:53,273
- You want to do more?
- One more?
949
01:08:53,417 --> 01:08:54,566
Yeah, do one more.
950
01:09:01,676 --> 01:09:04,577
With eyes so dilated
951
01:09:04,720 --> 01:09:07,416
I've become your pupil
952
01:09:08,683 --> 01:09:11,789
You've taught me everything
953
01:09:11,936 --> 01:09:15,667
Probably the biggest band in the world
right now, please welcome Nirvana!
954
01:09:15,815 --> 01:09:17,214
Nirvana are real.
955
01:09:17,358 --> 01:09:20,088
There's nothing pretentious about
them or anything like that.
956
01:09:20,236 --> 01:09:23,387
They're world famous, you know.
Everyone wants to see Nirvana.
957
01:09:23,531 --> 01:09:25,806
Kurt Cobain, he's so beautiful!
958
01:09:26,742 --> 01:09:30,064
Sloppy lips to lips
959
01:09:30,204 --> 01:09:32,775
You're my vitamins
960
01:09:32,915 --> 01:09:36,191
I like you
961
01:09:39,172 --> 01:09:41,652
Interviews are worthless.
Let's go!
962
01:09:41,799 --> 01:09:44,871
- What do you think about interviews?
- What do I think?
963
01:09:45,011 --> 01:09:47,616
Did you hear my reaction when
he asked me if I wanted to do one?
964
01:09:47,763 --> 01:09:50,709
- Yes.
- I said, "no. "
965
01:10:04,238 --> 01:10:06,092
I'm a hardcore Nirvana fan myself.
966
01:10:06,240 --> 01:10:08,970
Yeah? Is this a disease you've
had long? Any cure for it?
967
01:10:09,118 --> 01:10:10,972
He's talking from his experiences.
968
01:10:11,120 --> 01:10:12,815
He's talking from his experience?
969
01:10:12,955 --> 01:10:15,560
- Well, he's got lousy experience, sir.
- It was not his goal
970
01:10:15,708 --> 01:10:18,859
to make millions of dollars when he made
the stuff. He's writing about his life.
971
01:10:19,003 --> 01:10:21,574
Well, his life needs to see
a therapist or a minister,
972
01:10:21,714 --> 01:10:24,114
and it doesn't need to be
on millions of CDs
973
01:10:24,258 --> 01:10:26,112
for kids to listen to
and identify with
974
01:10:26,260 --> 01:10:29,366
and have more of their despair
and their hopelessness emphasised
975
01:10:29,513 --> 01:10:31,367
by the tragedy of
this man's life.
976
01:11:20,690 --> 01:11:23,261
I guess each individual
is gonna deal with it
977
01:11:23,401 --> 01:11:26,381
the way they're gonna deal with it.
I get, you know...
978
01:11:26,529 --> 01:11:29,180
It was kind of traumatic to
be famous all of a sudden,
979
01:11:29,323 --> 01:11:31,928
especially coming from
this complete obscurity
980
01:11:32,076 --> 01:11:34,601
and just being the, like,
number-one band in the world.
981
01:11:34,745 --> 01:11:37,896
So I do things like withdraw,
drink, you know.
982
01:11:38,040 --> 01:11:43,160
I'm lucky. I had beer and wine,
you know. Kurt had heroin.
983
01:11:47,008 --> 01:11:49,283
Given how volatile
and complicated
984
01:11:49,427 --> 01:11:52,248
things were for Kurt
around that time,
985
01:11:52,388 --> 01:11:57,337
why do you think he chose that moment
to start his relationship with Courtney?
986
01:11:59,270 --> 01:12:03,468
I went... I had this relationship
with this person, this woman.
987
01:12:03,607 --> 01:12:07,885
And I just kind of wanted to
build this home for myself,
988
01:12:08,029 --> 01:12:12,637
cos my home, growing up,
had fallen apart,
989
01:12:12,783 --> 01:12:14,102
so I wanted to build a home.
990
01:12:14,243 --> 01:12:17,440
And I think that Kurt
wanted to do that, too.
991
01:12:17,580 --> 01:12:22,062
He wanted to build a home because
his home and his family fell apart.
992
01:12:22,209 --> 01:12:26,737
So when Courtney came
into his life, they had...
993
01:12:26,881 --> 01:12:31,113
She was interesting,
she was artistic, intellectual.
994
01:12:31,260 --> 01:12:33,615
And, you know,
she did drugs, too.
995
01:12:33,763 --> 01:12:38,416
But that was all part of the
package of building a home.
996
01:12:41,645 --> 01:12:44,876
Check, check, check,
check, check, check, check.
997
01:12:45,024 --> 01:12:47,845
Let's watch theirsound check,
shall we?
998
01:12:47,985 --> 01:12:51,637
Maybe it'll bug them and
they'll play really bad.
999
01:12:54,075 --> 01:12:57,283
So you're having a relationship
with the guitar player?
1000
01:12:58,038 --> 01:12:59,960
No?
1001
01:13:00,289 --> 01:13:03,565
It was a short love affair?
1002
01:13:03,709 --> 01:13:07,941
I don't know what it was.
Honestly.
1003
01:13:08,089 --> 01:13:11,411
- It's over?
- I think, yeah.
1004
01:13:11,550 --> 01:13:15,748
- What happened?
- I don't care.
1005
01:13:22,561 --> 01:13:24,756
We're making a movie.
1006
01:13:24,897 --> 01:13:27,422
- Did you curl your hair?
- You don't like it?
1007
01:13:27,566 --> 01:13:29,136
It's nicer when it's straight
1008
01:13:29,276 --> 01:13:31,255
because it doesn't make
your face look so round.
1009
01:13:31,404 --> 01:13:33,178
Oh, my God!
1010
01:13:34,115 --> 01:13:35,719
Hello?
1011
01:13:35,866 --> 01:13:39,267
How is it on stage?
Is it clear on stage?
1012
01:13:52,258 --> 01:13:55,659
Now, if she ever
comes down now
1013
01:13:55,803 --> 01:13:57,782
If she ever comes down now
1014
01:13:57,930 --> 01:14:00,581
If she ever comes now
1015
01:14:00,724 --> 01:14:04,125
Now, if she ever
comes down now
1016
01:14:04,270 --> 01:14:06,170
If she ever comes down now
1017
01:14:06,313 --> 01:14:08,838
If she ever comes now
1018
01:14:08,983 --> 01:14:12,931
Aah, she looks so good
1019
01:14:13,070 --> 01:14:16,096
Aah, she's made
out of wood
1020
01:14:16,240 --> 01:14:19,437
She says, "Oh"
1021
01:14:38,554 --> 01:14:40,704
He was super cute,
1022
01:14:40,848 --> 01:14:43,328
but he carried himself like
someone who didn't know that.
1023
01:14:43,476 --> 01:14:44,829
And that was part
of the charm.
1024
01:14:45,686 --> 01:14:49,838
He didn't know that he was a
better-looking guy than Brad Pitt.
1025
01:14:49,982 --> 01:14:52,633
We got on like a house
on fuckin' fire.
1026
01:14:52,776 --> 01:14:55,023
One caveat.
1027
01:14:55,176 --> 01:15:00,207
I had already done heroin,
beat the thing, had a rule,
1028
01:15:00,242 --> 01:15:03,743
I loved it still, but I didn't have
a fantasy that he had.
1029
01:15:03,871 --> 01:15:05,850
He had a fantasy.
His fantasy was,
1030
01:15:05,998 --> 01:15:09,445
"I'm gonna get to three million dollars,
then I'm gonna be a junkie. "
1031
01:15:09,585 --> 01:15:12,156
That was his...
those are his words.
1032
01:15:29,021 --> 01:15:31,876
Come as you are
1033
01:15:32,024 --> 01:15:33,878
As you were
1034
01:15:34,026 --> 01:15:37,382
As I want you to be
1035
01:15:37,947 --> 01:15:41,895
As a friend
1036
01:15:42,034 --> 01:15:45,856
As an old enemy
1037
01:15:45,996 --> 01:15:49,727
Take your time, hurry up
1038
01:15:49,875 --> 01:15:51,604
The choice is yours
1039
01:15:51,752 --> 01:15:53,606
Don't be late
1040
01:15:53,754 --> 01:15:57,076
There he is, he's against the wall.
Oh, my God!
1041
01:15:57,216 --> 01:15:59,821
He's totally trapped back there.
1042
01:16:02,638 --> 01:16:04,287
Is it fun to be famous?
1043
01:16:04,431 --> 01:16:06,706
People who are really famous
1044
01:16:06,850 --> 01:16:09,125
end up total recluses
1045
01:16:09,270 --> 01:16:13,047
and they don't do anything.
That sucks.
1046
01:16:13,941 --> 01:16:19,140
And I swear that
I don't have a gun
1047
01:16:19,280 --> 01:16:22,567
No, I don't have a gun
1048
01:16:22,939 --> 01:16:26,991
No, I don't have a gun
1049
01:16:58,235 --> 01:17:00,526
Memoria
1050
01:17:00,787 --> 01:17:04,212
Memoria
1051
01:17:04,497 --> 01:17:07,908
Memoria
1052
01:17:08,424 --> 01:17:12,068
Memoria
1053
01:17:14,085 --> 01:17:19,780
And I swear that
I don't have a gun
1054
01:17:19,923 --> 01:17:23,054
No, I don't have a gun
1055
01:17:23,318 --> 01:17:26,913
No, I don't have a gun
1056
01:17:27,292 --> 01:17:30,806
No, I don't have a gun
1057
01:18:00,714 --> 01:18:03,444
The money,
the attention, the hype.
1058
01:18:03,592 --> 01:18:05,412
Kurt Cobain,
an overnight spokesman
1059
01:18:05,552 --> 01:18:07,031
for many disaffected
young people.
1060
01:18:07,179 --> 01:18:09,124
A spokesman for a generation.
1061
01:18:09,264 --> 01:18:11,960
To his generation, he's the closest
they have to John Lennon.
1062
01:18:12,101 --> 01:18:16,208
The money, the attention,
the hype, the hysteria.
1063
01:18:20,734 --> 01:18:24,932
It's not my fault.
I never wanted the fame.
1064
01:19:33,766 --> 01:19:36,337
Seattle's own Nirvana
finds itself at the very top
1065
01:19:36,477 --> 01:19:39,549
of Billboard's pop albums chart
with its album Nevermind,
1066
01:19:39,688 --> 01:19:43,169
while guitarist Kurt Cobain just
got engaged to Courtney Love,
1067
01:19:43,317 --> 01:19:45,888
front woman of an
LA band called Hole.
1068
01:19:46,445 --> 01:19:47,924
According to Rolling Stone,
1069
01:19:48,071 --> 01:19:51,598
Cobain fell ill with a stomach problem
during their tour of four continents
1070
01:19:51,742 --> 01:19:54,017
and had to cancel a number
of dates in England.
1071
01:19:54,161 --> 01:19:56,516
There's been speculation
of summer tour plans,
1072
01:19:56,663 --> 01:19:59,609
but so far only the next
Reading Festival in August.
1073
01:19:59,750 --> 01:20:02,230
Nirvana is now retreating
from doing interviews.
1074
01:20:02,377 --> 01:20:04,277
Whether it's a reaction
to too much too soon,
1075
01:20:04,421 --> 01:20:06,821
the band would rather
their music speak for itself
1076
01:20:06,965 --> 01:20:09,286
than be knighted as spokesmen
for a generation.
1077
01:20:11,345 --> 01:20:13,495
Right after you
guys got married,
1078
01:20:13,639 --> 01:20:17,416
they were the biggest band in the world,
and Kurt decided to take six months off.
1079
01:20:17,559 --> 01:20:21,916
So, officially, in the story
that's out in the world,
1080
01:20:22,064 --> 01:20:25,044
he took six months off
of their touring schedule?
1081
01:20:25,192 --> 01:20:28,047
He could've toured the world
and made a shitload of money.
1082
01:20:28,195 --> 01:20:29,173
Oh, I see.
1083
01:20:29,321 --> 01:20:32,347
It seemed he wanted to stay in an
apartment with you and do heroin.
1084
01:20:32,491 --> 01:20:35,471
Yeah, he wanted to stay in an
apartment and do heroin and paint.
1085
01:20:35,619 --> 01:20:38,645
And play his guitar.
That's what he wanted to do.
1086
01:20:51,677 --> 01:20:53,281
Hi.
1087
01:20:58,600 --> 01:21:00,079
Hi.
1088
01:21:12,948 --> 01:21:15,803
This is our house.
This is where we live.
1089
01:21:15,951 --> 01:21:18,772
I know it looks disgusting now,
but sometimes it's nice.
1090
01:21:18,912 --> 01:21:22,018
I have to really clean it,
cos no one else fucking does.
1091
01:21:22,165 --> 01:21:24,645
OK, this is the toilet.
1092
01:21:24,793 --> 01:21:26,397
This is...
1093
01:21:27,170 --> 01:21:28,865
- This is me.
- Courtney.
1094
01:21:29,006 --> 01:21:31,986
- Hello?
- Do we have a turkey baster?
1095
01:21:32,134 --> 01:21:35,160
What?
1096
01:21:35,304 --> 01:21:39,377
Why do you think that everyone thinks
you're the good one and I'm the bad one?
1097
01:21:39,516 --> 01:21:42,337
Because I know how
to use my illusion.
1098
01:21:42,477 --> 01:21:44,957
Where are you going?
1099
01:21:45,105 --> 01:21:51,010
I'm going into my living room!
I paid for this.
1100
01:21:51,153 --> 01:21:52,882
Put on the dancing
merry chimp!
1101
01:21:56,742 --> 01:22:01,020
So is this the living room that that guy
described in Rolling Stone magazine?
1102
01:22:01,163 --> 01:22:05,771
Nothing but a Twin Reverb amp
and teddy bears to keep him company.
1103
01:22:07,377 --> 01:22:09,356
- Where's Eric?
- The chimp.
1104
01:22:11,465 --> 01:22:13,990
Hi, honey.
1105
01:22:14,134 --> 01:22:16,329
- Hi.
- I love you, love.
1106
01:22:16,470 --> 01:22:19,450
You are so cute.
Here, Eric, you film for a while.
1107
01:22:20,599 --> 01:22:23,796
This is the Kurt Cobain
action figure.
1108
01:22:24,728 --> 01:22:26,958
Secret coded message
in his guitar.
1109
01:22:27,105 --> 01:22:30,381
Kurt, I think he looks remarkably
a lot like you. Look at that.
1110
01:22:30,525 --> 01:22:32,220
I've had that since I was a child.
1111
01:22:32,361 --> 01:22:36,969
And he's playing what looks
to be a sort of Mosrite-y, vintage...
1112
01:22:37,115 --> 01:22:39,640
Come into the breakfast nook!
1113
01:23:08,939 --> 01:23:11,510
- Are you filming us?
- Uh-huh.
1114
01:23:12,818 --> 01:23:17,221
She gives me everything
1115
01:23:18,198 --> 01:23:22,020
And tenderly
1116
01:23:23,245 --> 01:23:27,477
The kiss my lover brings
1117
01:23:28,083 --> 01:23:31,439
She brings to me
1118
01:23:31,586 --> 01:23:34,987
And I love her
1119
01:23:38,176 --> 01:23:42,624
Bright are the
stars that shine
1120
01:23:43,181 --> 01:23:46,833
Dark is the sky
1121
01:23:48,145 --> 01:23:52,377
I know this love of mine
1122
01:23:53,108 --> 01:23:56,134
Will never die
1123
01:23:56,278 --> 01:23:59,600
And I love her
1124
01:24:03,243 --> 01:24:07,100
A love like ours
1125
01:24:07,873 --> 01:24:11,650
Will never die
1126
01:24:12,794 --> 01:24:15,299
As long as I
1127
01:24:15,523 --> 01:24:19,383
Hold you near me
1128
01:24:35,609 --> 01:24:37,463
Did you guys want
to have a baby?
1129
01:24:37,611 --> 01:24:39,010
Oh, God, yes.
1130
01:24:39,154 --> 01:24:43,386
Yes, we wanted to have a baby.
And I conceived Frances in December.
1131
01:24:43,533 --> 01:24:46,058
So I was pregnant
when I got married, yes.
1132
01:24:46,203 --> 01:24:47,227
We were all we had,
1133
01:24:47,370 --> 01:24:52,854
so making a family as fast as possible
was, you know, important. You know?
1134
01:24:53,001 --> 01:24:55,856
So, I mean, if I had
had more time,
1135
01:24:56,004 --> 01:24:59,155
I'm telling you, I'd have
had more kids with him.
1136
01:25:00,509 --> 01:25:02,784
Why do you feel so bad?
1137
01:25:04,930 --> 01:25:06,750
- Why?
- Uh-huh.
1138
01:25:07,849 --> 01:25:12,297
Because I want to.
It's my fault.
1139
01:25:12,437 --> 01:25:16,510
- All my fault.
- You're beautiful.
1140
01:25:16,650 --> 01:25:18,754
- I think you're really cute.
- Thank you.
1141
01:25:18,902 --> 01:25:24,181
So do a lot of Sassy readers.
I married Bobby Sherman.
1142
01:25:24,324 --> 01:25:26,098
Do you think they
do this to me?
1143
01:25:26,243 --> 01:25:27,221
What?
1144
01:25:27,369 --> 01:25:30,190
Do you think they do this to
me when they read Sassy?
1145
01:25:32,624 --> 01:25:35,525
Girls don't masturbate
over their teen idols.
1146
01:25:35,669 --> 01:25:36,647
They don't?
1147
01:25:36,795 --> 01:25:39,821
No. They make up more intricate,
schematic plans.
1148
01:25:39,965 --> 01:25:42,195
Girls are a lot more
complex than boys.
1149
01:25:42,342 --> 01:25:44,116
You don't know what
girls do to each other.
1150
01:25:44,261 --> 01:25:46,115
- Yes, I do.
- No, you don't.
1151
01:25:46,263 --> 01:25:47,241
They're vicious.
1152
01:25:47,389 --> 01:25:49,619
It's, like, you can know about
crafty girls all you want,
1153
01:25:49,766 --> 01:25:53,042
but I wouldn't let you go
on tour with crafty girls
1154
01:25:53,186 --> 01:25:55,666
because fucking doesn't
fucking matter, man.
1155
01:25:55,814 --> 01:25:57,634
They...
They...
1156
01:26:00,318 --> 01:26:04,266
They diss me.
They diss me all the time.
1157
01:26:04,406 --> 01:26:08,012
I'd be fat. I can't... I know,
it's not even like I can't trust you.
1158
01:26:08,160 --> 01:26:10,060
It's just you can't trust men
in general,
1159
01:26:10,203 --> 01:26:13,684
even, even if they're new men
and they're you.
1160
01:26:13,832 --> 01:26:18,531
Even if they're like you,
you still can't trust them.
1161
01:26:18,670 --> 01:26:21,616
I understand what you're
trying to say, but I don't agree.
1162
01:26:21,756 --> 01:26:26,830
I'm a new man. I'm a man for the '90s.
I'm Ward Cleaver.
1163
01:26:26,970 --> 01:26:29,541
And then, you being you,
you'd be all sensitive,
1164
01:26:29,681 --> 01:26:33,412
and you'd go, "How are we
gonna tell Courtney?"
1165
01:26:33,560 --> 01:26:35,755
Meanwhile, I've ruined my career,
ruined my life,
1166
01:26:35,896 --> 01:26:37,466
become the most hated woman
in America.
1167
01:26:37,606 --> 01:26:39,631
You were already the most
hated woman in America.
1168
01:26:39,774 --> 01:26:40,923
What?
1169
01:26:41,067 --> 01:26:44,093
You and Roseanne Barr tied for being
the most hated woman in America.
1170
01:26:44,237 --> 01:26:45,716
OK, I married Bobby Sherman,
1171
01:26:45,864 --> 01:26:48,389
I'm the most hated woman,
ruined my body,
1172
01:26:48,533 --> 01:26:53,015
not played the Reading Festival this
year when I could've kicked your ass.
1173
01:26:53,163 --> 01:26:55,267
You should still play
the Reading Festival.
1174
01:26:55,415 --> 01:26:57,861
Oh, yeah. So I should just play
the Reading Festival.
1175
01:26:58,001 --> 01:27:00,026
- Dive into the crowd.
- Right, that's right.
1176
01:27:00,170 --> 01:27:03,992
Shoot off a gun,
light yourself on fire.
1177
01:27:04,132 --> 01:27:09,661
Everyone wants to see this.
And this is only half of it.
1178
01:27:09,804 --> 01:27:13,501
- The rest is yet to come.
- Look. Moustache!
1179
01:27:13,642 --> 01:27:15,587
I kind of like that.
1180
01:27:16,269 --> 01:27:18,749
Free moustache rides!
1181
01:27:19,606 --> 01:27:22,052
It's a womb broom.
1182
01:27:22,192 --> 01:27:25,172
- Keep it, please!
- OK!
1183
01:27:25,320 --> 01:27:27,174
- Just keep it for the night.
- No way!
1184
01:27:27,322 --> 01:27:29,973
Please, Kurt, you need...
This is the...
1185
01:27:30,116 --> 01:27:35,645
Outshined, outshined,
outshined!
1186
01:27:35,789 --> 01:27:37,233
This is the look of Aberdeen.
1187
01:27:37,374 --> 01:27:39,695
Come on, look at the camera!
1188
01:27:41,002 --> 01:27:43,903
I was in Vietnam,
you weren't in Vietnam.
1189
01:27:44,047 --> 01:27:46,151
I was in Vietnam!
1190
01:27:46,299 --> 01:27:48,950
Look at my large breasts.
1191
01:27:49,594 --> 01:27:51,198
"Dearest Sassy,
1192
01:27:51,346 --> 01:27:55,419
and whoever else is responsible for
the Kurt Cobain-Courtney pig story. "
1193
01:27:55,558 --> 01:27:59,881
"Your story in April's Sassy about
Kurt Cobain and that Courtney hag
1194
01:28:00,021 --> 01:28:01,625
truly made me want to vomit. "
1195
01:28:01,773 --> 01:28:04,799
"First of all, what could have been
a beautiful interview experience
1196
01:28:04,943 --> 01:28:07,389
with Kurt Cobain,
the god of love in human form,
1197
01:28:07,529 --> 01:28:11,761
was totally ruined by nasty old dirty
Ms Love running her big fat mouth. "
1198
01:28:11,908 --> 01:28:13,808
"Who cares about her
stupid Victorian house
1199
01:28:13,952 --> 01:28:17,308
or her sucky band or how she
was so obnoxious and pushy
1200
01:28:17,455 --> 01:28:19,980
that she scared poor Kurt
into going out with her?"
1201
01:28:20,125 --> 01:28:23,105
"Secondly, you guys are supposed
to be understanding and all that,
1202
01:28:23,253 --> 01:28:25,574
so what possessed you to be
so insensitive to those of us
1203
01:28:25,714 --> 01:28:27,818
who would lick the ground
Kurt Cobain walked on?"
1204
01:28:27,966 --> 01:28:30,070
"You could have just mentioned
the vile Courtney,
1205
01:28:30,218 --> 01:28:33,415
but oh no, you went so far as to
show her kissing Kurt. Blech!"
1206
01:28:33,555 --> 01:28:36,410
"I will never forgive you.
Never, never, never!"
1207
01:28:36,558 --> 01:28:41,291
"Sincerely disillusioned with life,
Stacy, the Kurt slave. "
1208
01:28:41,438 --> 01:28:43,417
And there's a little happy
face on the bottom.
1209
01:28:43,565 --> 01:28:46,545
"Happy face. This is not currently me,
thanks to you. "
1210
01:28:47,152 --> 01:28:52,761
Why don't you interview us?
"Kurt and Courtney: Sassy II. "
1211
01:28:54,159 --> 01:28:57,606
How does it feel to be fast?
1212
01:28:57,746 --> 01:29:00,067
Like, in the fast lane?
1213
01:29:02,125 --> 01:29:06,607
At the height of
their drug abuse...
1214
01:29:06,755 --> 01:29:08,700
Damn, if I wasn't
so needle sick,
1215
01:29:08,840 --> 01:29:11,946
I'd be on tour with
Guns N' Roses right now.
1216
01:29:14,471 --> 01:29:17,827
Me and Axl would be whooping it up,
snake dancing across speakers.
1217
01:29:17,974 --> 01:29:22,422
Snake dancing across the stage
together singing Nazareth songs.
1218
01:29:22,562 --> 01:29:25,668
But I'm too goddamn
needle sick, man.
1219
01:29:25,815 --> 01:29:27,919
Are you fucked up, baby?
1220
01:29:33,114 --> 01:29:36,561
You will see, you and me
1221
01:29:36,701 --> 01:29:40,228
Kurt, please, be with me
1222
01:29:44,151 --> 01:29:47,483
I want to be
your girlfriend
1223
01:29:47,629 --> 01:29:50,876
Let me just be
your girlfriend
1224
01:29:51,053 --> 01:29:54,244
Let me just be
your girlfriend
1225
01:29:54,279 --> 01:29:57,704
Well, I put it in my ass
and it kind of was painful
1226
01:29:57,847 --> 01:30:01,499
Well, I put it in my anus
and that was heinous
1227
01:30:01,643 --> 01:30:04,464
I put it in my anus
and it kind of was heinous
1228
01:30:04,604 --> 01:30:08,301
But I put it in my belly
and it kind of was smelly
1229
01:30:08,441 --> 01:30:11,717
And I want to be
your girlfriend
1230
01:30:11,861 --> 01:30:15,183
I want to be your girlfriend
1231
01:30:15,323 --> 01:30:18,554
I want to ride your
bratmobile, baby
1232
01:30:18,701 --> 01:30:21,852
I want to know how
you really feel, yeah
1233
01:30:21,996 --> 01:30:24,772
I want to ride in
your bratmobile
1234
01:30:24,916 --> 01:30:28,272
I want to shoot up
in your bratmobile
1235
01:30:28,420 --> 01:30:32,527
Cos put it in my butt
and we're having sex, but...
1236
01:30:32,674 --> 01:30:36,747
I did do heroin when I was
pregnant, and then I stopped.
1237
01:30:36,886 --> 01:30:39,332
And I knew she would be fine.
1238
01:30:39,472 --> 01:30:40,951
Come on!
1239
01:30:41,099 --> 01:30:44,546
So, he was never concerned
that our child would have...
1240
01:30:44,686 --> 01:30:47,507
I assured him that I
was built like an oxen
1241
01:30:47,647 --> 01:30:51,378
and could carry this pregnancy to
term and not have any problems.
1242
01:30:51,526 --> 01:30:53,756
But, you know,
I was a young woman.
1243
01:30:53,903 --> 01:30:56,133
The pregnancy isn't the problem.
1244
01:30:56,281 --> 01:31:01,514
It's the being around a junkie while
I'm pregnant when I'm a junkie, too,
1245
01:31:01,661 --> 01:31:03,561
and I know the minute
that baby's out,
1246
01:31:03,705 --> 01:31:07,106
I'm gonna go shoot up
in celebratory fashion.
1247
01:31:07,250 --> 01:31:09,730
You know what I mean?
Like, that was our lifestyle.
1248
01:31:19,429 --> 01:31:21,499
Ten wars ago,
1249
01:31:21,639 --> 01:31:24,039
the sea monkeys were present.
1250
01:31:24,184 --> 01:31:27,460
The sea monkeys were hatched
and it begins,
1251
01:31:27,604 --> 01:31:30,209
and he said,
"You little girl. "
1252
01:31:30,815 --> 01:31:32,259
They found the little girl
1253
01:31:32,400 --> 01:31:36,552
stewing under his yellow
cigarette-stained fingernails.
1254
01:31:38,865 --> 01:31:43,347
And if you say your prayers
1255
01:31:43,495 --> 01:31:47,943
You will make God happy
1256
01:31:48,082 --> 01:31:52,439
And if you do what's true
1257
01:31:52,587 --> 01:31:57,160
You will make me happy
1258
01:31:57,300 --> 01:32:01,703
I'll keep you in a jar
1259
01:32:01,846 --> 01:32:06,294
And you will seem happy
1260
01:32:06,434 --> 01:32:10,837
I'll give you breathing holes
1261
01:32:10,980 --> 01:32:16,634
You will think
you're happy now
1262
01:34:25,823 --> 01:34:28,644
Does that get to you,
to read things, like, you know,
1263
01:34:28,785 --> 01:34:31,765
you're dying of smack addiction
or shit like that?
1264
01:34:31,913 --> 01:34:33,983
Yeah, it makes you feel
like the kid in school
1265
01:34:34,123 --> 01:34:36,068
who gets picked
on all the time.
1266
01:34:36,209 --> 01:34:39,281
Or it makes you feel
like the school slut.
1267
01:34:39,420 --> 01:34:41,775
Party on, Wayne.
1268
01:34:42,799 --> 01:34:44,448
I feel like people
want me to die
1269
01:34:44,592 --> 01:34:47,413
because it'd be the classic
rock and roll story.
1270
01:35:13,913 --> 01:35:16,484
I would like to officially
and publicly announce
1271
01:35:16,624 --> 01:35:18,694
that this is our last show.
1272
01:35:19,669 --> 01:35:23,025
There's been some pretty extreme
things written about us,
1273
01:35:23,172 --> 01:35:27,575
especially my wife, and she thinks
everybody hates her now.
1274
01:35:27,719 --> 01:35:32,622
So why don't you give her a message
and say, "Courtney, we love you"?
1275
01:35:32,765 --> 01:35:36,792
OK? Ready?
On the count of three.
1276
01:35:36,936 --> 01:35:38,836
One, two, three...
1277
01:35:38,980 --> 01:35:42,086
Courtney, we love you!
1278
01:35:42,233 --> 01:35:43,586
Thanks.
1279
01:35:57,707 --> 01:36:02,656
When I was an alien
1280
01:36:02,795 --> 01:36:07,619
Cultures weren't opinions
1281
01:36:07,759 --> 01:36:12,742
Gotta find a way,
a better way, when I'm there
1282
01:36:12,889 --> 01:36:17,622
Gotta find a way, a better way,
a better way
1283
01:36:17,769 --> 01:36:22,672
Gotta find a way, a better way,
when I'm there
1284
01:36:22,815 --> 01:36:26,888
Gotta find a way, a better way,
a better way
1285
01:36:37,955 --> 01:36:42,813
#Just because you're paranoid
1286
01:36:42,960 --> 01:36:48,080
#Don't mean they're
not after you
1287
01:36:48,216 --> 01:36:52,604
Gotta find a way, a better way,
when I'm there
1288
01:36:53,108 --> 01:36:58,011
Gotta find a way, a better way,
when I'm there
1289
01:36:58,046 --> 01:37:02,813
Gotta find a way, a better way,
a better way
1290
01:37:03,045 --> 01:37:08,092
Gotta find a way, a better way,
a better way
1291
01:38:29,734 --> 01:38:31,679
Hi.
1292
01:38:31,819 --> 01:38:35,175
Hi.
How you doing?
1293
01:38:36,657 --> 01:38:38,193
Are you getting suspicious
1294
01:38:38,326 --> 01:38:41,181
with this weird electronic device
in your face?
1295
01:38:41,329 --> 01:38:46,232
Staring right at it. Wait,
what do you see in there? Nothing.
1296
01:38:46,709 --> 01:38:51,658
Would you show your butt for the cam...?
Oh, a little wet, OK. A little pee.
1297
01:38:51,797 --> 01:38:54,743
That is most definitely amphibian.
1298
01:38:55,801 --> 01:38:57,120
Don't look at me.
Don't...
1299
01:38:57,261 --> 01:38:59,331
Frances, this is your real problem.
1300
01:38:59,472 --> 01:39:01,497
Everywhere Daddy looks,
you won't look.
1301
01:39:01,641 --> 01:39:04,747
- Hi, hi.
- Look at Dad.
1302
01:39:22,954 --> 01:39:27,027
This is the happiest baby I've
ever seen. Don't you think?
1303
01:39:27,166 --> 01:39:31,739
No! No, she's got lots of
things in store for her.
1304
01:39:31,879 --> 01:39:34,700
You want to be a star
for a while and I'll film?
1305
01:39:34,840 --> 01:39:36,068
You want to be the star?
1306
01:39:41,138 --> 01:39:43,959
Fly.
Want to fly?
1307
01:39:44,100 --> 01:39:47,126
Fly?
1308
01:39:48,479 --> 01:39:49,832
Nose.
1309
01:39:50,773 --> 01:39:52,343
Tastes good?
1310
01:39:57,863 --> 01:40:01,594
Want to barf in my mouth again?
Three times is the charm.
1311
01:40:03,160 --> 01:40:05,390
- Are you getting all this?
- Yes!
1312
01:40:05,538 --> 01:40:08,109
- Aren't we lucky?
- I know.
1313
01:40:46,245 --> 01:40:48,816
Are you worried about
the kind of mistakes
1314
01:40:48,956 --> 01:40:51,436
that might have been made
when you were growing up
1315
01:40:51,584 --> 01:40:55,566
that sort of impacts on how
you deal with her situation?
1316
01:40:55,713 --> 01:41:00,741
No. My father and I are
completely different people.
1317
01:41:00,885 --> 01:41:06,369
I know that I'm capable of showing
a lot more affection than my dad was.
1318
01:41:06,515 --> 01:41:09,837
I mean, even if Courtney
and I were to get a divorce,
1319
01:41:09,977 --> 01:41:13,629
I would never allow us
to be in a situation
1320
01:41:13,773 --> 01:41:18,051
where there are bad vibes
between us in front of her.
1321
01:41:18,194 --> 01:41:20,264
If there's anything
we're determined to do,
1322
01:41:20,404 --> 01:41:23,384
it's to give Frances
as much love as we can.
1323
01:41:23,532 --> 01:41:29,311
I mean, if anything is going to stop me
from pursuing this rock and roll thing,
1324
01:41:29,455 --> 01:41:30,774
it's going to be her
1325
01:41:30,915 --> 01:41:34,737
because I don't want her to
be screwed up because of it.
1326
01:41:35,836 --> 01:41:38,191
I don't know what's going to
happen in the next few years.
1327
01:41:38,339 --> 01:41:39,738
It's kind of scary.
1328
01:41:52,937 --> 01:41:56,009
- I dropped it.
- Mommy's loud.
1329
01:41:56,148 --> 01:41:59,345
I'm loud.
Oh, who's a big crybaby?
1330
01:41:59,485 --> 01:42:02,761
Oh, look at that.
She's... She's kind of upset!
1331
01:42:02,905 --> 01:42:06,557
OK, let's get her naked.
That's what I want. I want you naked.
1332
01:42:06,700 --> 01:42:10,022
Nirvana, who the fuck
do you think you are?
1333
01:42:10,162 --> 01:42:12,232
- Ew!
- Seeing your interviews
1334
01:42:12,373 --> 01:42:17,401
makes me think you guys are the most
immature pieces of trash ever made.
1335
01:42:17,545 --> 01:42:19,445
If you assholes could
ever write anything
1336
01:42:19,588 --> 01:42:22,864
that could come close to anything
Guns N' Roses has written,
1337
01:42:23,008 --> 01:42:24,282
maybe you could talk.
1338
01:42:24,426 --> 01:42:27,827
But until you sell a few
billion more albums,
1339
01:42:27,972 --> 01:42:30,668
take your head out of your
asses and smell the air.
1340
01:42:30,808 --> 01:42:33,288
It smells like Guns N' Roses.
1341
01:42:33,435 --> 01:42:37,462
Thank you. Thank you.
Thank you. Thank you.
1342
01:42:37,606 --> 01:42:39,801
OK, enough of cute voices.
1343
01:42:39,942 --> 01:42:42,012
Leave me alone,
I have to read this now.
1344
01:42:42,153 --> 01:42:44,178
Especially you!
Don't look at me.
1345
01:42:44,321 --> 01:42:47,142
Don't look at me.
Hey, yeah.
1346
01:43:07,636 --> 01:43:11,288
In an isolation tank
1347
01:43:11,432 --> 01:43:16,005
on 50 hits of Demerol,
1348
01:43:16,145 --> 01:43:18,340
as New Age music
1349
01:43:18,480 --> 01:43:23,088
poisons the scarce, humid air.
1350
01:43:56,727 --> 01:44:00,254
Tonight from Hollywood,
we bring you a most unusual broadcast,
1351
01:44:00,397 --> 01:44:01,796
starring a famous radio couple
1352
01:44:01,941 --> 01:44:05,092
who have never before appeared
in a story of this kind.
1353
01:44:32,554 --> 01:44:35,375
This is Kurt Cobain.
1354
01:44:35,516 --> 01:44:38,041
I have a lot of things
to say to you.
1355
01:44:38,185 --> 01:44:41,006
A lot of fucking things
to say to you.
1356
01:44:41,146 --> 01:44:44,218
You parasitic little
fucking cunt.
1357
01:44:44,358 --> 01:44:46,804
You're not writing
about my band.
1358
01:44:46,944 --> 01:44:51,677
You're writing about how
jealous you are of my wife.
1359
01:44:51,824 --> 01:44:56,272
You have absolutely no fucking
idea what you're doing.
1360
01:44:56,412 --> 01:44:58,812
You will find out.
1361
01:44:58,956 --> 01:45:04,440
I don't care if this is a recorded threat.
I'm at the end of my rope.
1362
01:45:04,586 --> 01:45:07,237
I've never been more
fucking serious in my life.
1363
01:46:56,323 --> 01:46:59,850
Everything we do to develop
personal courage, confidence,
1364
01:46:59,993 --> 01:47:02,018
and belief in our own abilities.
1365
01:47:02,162 --> 01:47:04,232
Make your determination
so strong
1366
01:47:04,373 --> 01:47:07,399
that it will eliminate any
situation or circumstance
1367
01:47:07,543 --> 01:47:09,989
which stands in the
way of your goal.
1368
01:47:10,838 --> 01:47:12,817
Check, check, check, check, check.
1369
01:48:13,275 --> 01:48:15,755
This looks just like
the Metallica video.
1370
01:48:15,903 --> 01:48:18,383
This is part of your
rockumentary.
1371
01:48:18,530 --> 01:48:19,974
I think this album is a...
1372
01:48:20,115 --> 01:48:22,811
It really expresses
the way we feel inside.
1373
01:48:22,951 --> 01:48:24,976
You can't just do what
you do on stage.
1374
01:48:25,120 --> 01:48:27,099
You can't.
You're making an album.
1375
01:48:38,175 --> 01:48:40,951
Frances!
Frances, Frances, Frances!
1376
01:48:41,845 --> 01:48:43,198
Ah!
1377
01:48:45,682 --> 01:48:47,456
OK, OK.
1378
01:48:47,601 --> 01:48:50,456
I have to... They're calling me.
I have to work now. Take care, baby.
1379
01:48:50,604 --> 01:48:53,926
Well, rock on!
Daddy's got to go rock!
1380
01:49:06,119 --> 01:49:09,816
Teenage angst
has paid off well
1381
01:49:09,957 --> 01:49:14,030
Now I'm bored and old
1382
01:49:14,169 --> 01:49:17,866
Self-appointed judges judge
1383
01:49:18,006 --> 01:49:20,611
More than they
have sold
1384
01:49:22,135 --> 01:49:25,992
If she floats
then she is not
1385
01:49:26,139 --> 01:49:30,041
A witch like we
had thought
1386
01:49:30,185 --> 01:49:33,712
A down payment on another
1387
01:49:33,855 --> 01:49:38,258
One at Salem's Lot
1388
01:49:38,402 --> 01:49:41,428
You said before, let's make a record
to lose most of your audience.
1389
01:49:41,572 --> 01:49:43,802
I was in the beginning,
about a year and a half ago.
1390
01:49:43,949 --> 01:49:45,723
I was completely fed up
with the whole thing.
1391
01:49:45,867 --> 01:49:48,017
I didn't want to be
a rock star at all.
1392
01:49:48,161 --> 01:49:50,641
It was just...
It was freaking me out, you know?
1393
01:49:50,789 --> 01:49:54,373
But I've had two years
to recuperate.
1394
01:49:55,043 --> 01:50:00,401
That legendary divorce
is such a bore
1395
01:50:02,467 --> 01:50:05,914
As my bones grew
they did hurt
1396
01:50:06,054 --> 01:50:08,705
They hurt really bad
1397
01:50:09,600 --> 01:50:12,956
I tried hard to have a father
1398
01:50:13,103 --> 01:50:16,834
But instead I had a dad
1399
01:50:16,982 --> 01:50:20,383
I just want you to know that I
1400
01:50:20,527 --> 01:50:24,111
Don't hate you any more
1401
01:50:24,239 --> 01:50:27,686
There is nothing I could say
1402
01:50:27,826 --> 01:50:31,227
That I haven't thought before
1403
01:50:32,421 --> 01:50:35,870
Serve the servants, oh no
1404
01:50:36,112 --> 01:50:39,834
Serve the servants, oh no
1405
01:50:39,918 --> 01:50:42,621
Serve the servants
1406
01:50:42,771 --> 01:50:48,492
That legendary divorce
is such a bore
1407
01:50:57,939 --> 01:50:59,588
Nirvana's third album,
In Utero,
1408
01:50:59,733 --> 01:51:01,507
a record with a decidedly
hard-edged sound,
1409
01:51:01,652 --> 01:51:03,802
courtesy of maverick producer,
Steve Albini,
1410
01:51:03,945 --> 01:51:07,176
will make its debut at number one
on Monday's new Billboard pop chart.
1411
01:51:07,741 --> 01:51:11,063
Nirvana will be starting a US tour
at the Arizona State Fair.
1412
01:51:23,465 --> 01:51:27,492
Happy birthday to you
1413
01:51:27,636 --> 01:51:32,335
Happy birthday, dear Frances
1414
01:51:32,474 --> 01:51:36,672
Happy birthday to you
1415
01:51:38,021 --> 01:51:42,253
You're one!
You're one! One year old!
1416
01:51:43,485 --> 01:51:45,931
- OK, what's this?
- We got something to do.
1417
01:51:46,071 --> 01:51:50,053
This is great!
Alright!
1418
01:51:50,200 --> 01:51:53,397
Kurt! You can't leave!
Come back!
1419
01:51:55,372 --> 01:51:57,397
Would you like some cake?
1420
01:51:58,792 --> 01:52:01,113
I'm not opening this
till you come back.
1421
01:52:08,593 --> 01:52:11,949
- Kurt?
- I'm bored.
1422
01:52:12,097 --> 01:52:15,578
Kurt?
It's Frances's first haircut.
1423
01:52:15,726 --> 01:52:19,173
Alright, I'm going to take the
chair out. Put her on the throne.
1424
01:52:19,312 --> 01:52:20,631
Let me do that.
1425
01:52:20,772 --> 01:52:22,421
Should I do it right here?
1426
01:52:23,650 --> 01:52:26,596
Kurt? Sit her on the throne.
Where's the scissors? You got 'em?
1427
01:52:26,737 --> 01:52:29,183
- Somebody's gotta hold her.
- I can do it.
1428
01:52:29,322 --> 01:52:31,643
No, I'm doing the haircut.
Yes, I am!
1429
01:52:31,783 --> 01:52:33,262
You aren't very
still with her.
1430
01:52:33,410 --> 01:52:35,389
Yes, I am.
I'm doing the haircut.
1431
01:52:38,248 --> 01:52:40,227
I don't really talk, just...
1432
01:52:40,375 --> 01:52:42,104
Jesus Christ.
1433
01:52:42,711 --> 01:52:44,565
- OK.
- You are such a good baby.
1434
01:52:44,713 --> 01:52:46,487
Shall I go down
and get a bowl?
1435
01:52:46,631 --> 01:52:50,328
Will you try and find the
classical station on there?
1436
01:52:50,469 --> 01:52:52,790
This is your Cartier comb.
1437
01:52:52,929 --> 01:52:55,705
That's right.
1438
01:53:02,731 --> 01:53:05,757
You haven't been eating a lot.
You don't feel like a bloated child.
1439
01:53:05,901 --> 01:53:08,927
Yeah, you gotta force
her to eat lately.
1440
01:53:09,070 --> 01:53:10,514
She's been sick.
1441
01:53:10,655 --> 01:53:12,976
Well, you really have
to force her to eat.
1442
01:53:13,116 --> 01:53:14,652
She's not...
She's not motivated.
1443
01:53:14,785 --> 01:53:17,891
We don't have any milk
in the house either.
1444
01:53:18,038 --> 01:53:21,144
I'm tired of telling everyone.
1445
01:53:24,044 --> 01:53:25,397
It's, like, a big deal.
1446
01:53:25,545 --> 01:53:29,367
I'm so tired.
Can't keep my eyes open.
1447
01:53:29,508 --> 01:53:30,577
Stop it!
1448
01:53:30,717 --> 01:53:34,369
Kurt, you don't want our daughter
to see you behaving like this, on drugs.
1449
01:53:34,513 --> 01:53:38,836
- I'm not on drugs! I'm tired!
- Do you have more teeth?
1450
01:53:44,272 --> 01:53:47,002
See? See?
Wife beating.
1451
01:53:48,026 --> 01:53:49,675
Here we go.
1452
01:53:54,991 --> 01:53:58,313
Oh, my pretty girly locks!
1453
01:53:58,453 --> 01:54:01,433
You look so gorgeous.
You won't be able to believe it.
1454
01:54:01,581 --> 01:54:06,154
You won't be able
to believe it.
1455
01:54:06,294 --> 01:54:10,025
Amazing grace!
1456
01:54:10,173 --> 01:54:14,826
How sweet the sound
1457
01:54:14,970 --> 01:54:19,683
That saved a wretch...
1458
01:54:19,903 --> 01:54:24,456
like me
1459
01:54:25,355 --> 01:54:30,752
I once was lost
1460
01:54:31,611 --> 01:54:37,186
But now am found
1461
01:54:37,325 --> 01:54:39,850
Was blind
1462
01:54:39,995 --> 01:54:45,900
But now I see
1463
01:54:51,548 --> 01:54:55,996
It just...
Every week, it got worse.
1464
01:54:56,136 --> 01:55:00,209
And sometimes he would come home,
I think, to hide.
1465
01:55:00,348 --> 01:55:01,884
And it was really bad.
1466
01:55:02,017 --> 01:55:07,876
He started getting sores and he was
losing weight and nodding out and...
1467
01:55:09,065 --> 01:55:11,841
I was pretty sure
he knew I knew,
1468
01:55:11,985 --> 01:55:16,137
but I decided one time
to just confront him.
1469
01:55:16,281 --> 01:55:19,307
And so I went up
to his bedroom,
1470
01:55:19,451 --> 01:55:21,430
and he was sitting
on the side of the bed.
1471
01:55:21,578 --> 01:55:24,399
And he was crying because
I had just arrived,
1472
01:55:24,539 --> 01:55:28,316
and he knew it was
breaking my heart.
1473
01:55:29,586 --> 01:55:31,235
But I...
And I talked to him about it
1474
01:55:31,379 --> 01:55:34,701
and everything that I had
learned about heroin.
1475
01:55:34,841 --> 01:55:36,911
And I asked him if
he was at the stage
1476
01:55:37,052 --> 01:55:40,533
where he was addicted
to also the needle prick.
1477
01:55:40,680 --> 01:55:43,285
And he burst into tears.
1478
01:55:45,226 --> 01:55:47,501
And he...
he was just ashamed.
1479
01:56:15,757 --> 01:56:19,534
One of the songs that actually,
I really liked on In Utero,
1480
01:56:19,678 --> 01:56:23,910
but which you took off,
was I Hate Myself and Want to Die.
1481
01:56:24,057 --> 01:56:27,413
How literal is that song
in terms of the title?
1482
01:56:27,560 --> 01:56:31,087
As literal as a joke can be,
I mean...
1483
01:56:31,231 --> 01:56:32,926
Nothing more than a joke.
1484
01:56:33,066 --> 01:56:35,296
What kind of... who were you
playing the joke on?
1485
01:56:35,443 --> 01:56:38,048
Cos I have to admit,
my first reaction was, you know,
1486
01:56:38,196 --> 01:56:40,767
either this is really
intensely satirical
1487
01:56:40,907 --> 01:56:43,853
or there's some really
dark shit happening here.
1488
01:57:09,978 --> 01:57:13,254
I'm really thankful
for a lot of things.
1489
01:57:13,398 --> 01:57:16,253
My family, my child,
1490
01:57:16,985 --> 01:57:22,719
and every month, I come to
more optimistic conclusions.
1491
01:57:22,866 --> 01:57:26,063
Do you find that you're
getting happier in general?
1492
01:57:27,704 --> 01:57:30,400
I hope I don't become
so blissful that I lose...
1493
01:57:30,540 --> 01:57:31,893
Become boring?
1494
01:57:32,042 --> 01:57:37,275
Yeah, become boring, or I lose my edge,
or whatever it is, you know?
1495
01:57:37,422 --> 01:57:40,653
And who knows? I don't have
any new songs right now,
1496
01:57:40,800 --> 01:57:43,576
so I'm starting from scratch
for the first time.
1497
01:57:43,720 --> 01:57:45,494
Tabula rasa.
Ought to be interesting.
1498
01:57:45,638 --> 01:57:46,866
Yeah.
1499
01:57:47,015 --> 01:57:49,210
Is there a little fear
of the unknown?
1500
01:57:49,350 --> 01:57:51,671
Yeah.
Definitely.
1501
01:57:53,396 --> 01:57:56,092
Check, check, check,
check, check, check.
1502
01:57:57,776 --> 01:58:01,758
Turn both guitars down now.
They're too loud.
1503
01:58:02,530 --> 01:58:06,011
Scott, you know that
goofy ass stuff
1504
01:58:06,159 --> 01:58:09,936
that they have at music stores
called Finger Ease?
1505
01:58:10,080 --> 01:58:12,059
It's like an anal gel.
1506
01:58:12,207 --> 01:58:15,404
If I could just put some
on this string.
1507
01:58:15,543 --> 01:58:18,523
Yeah, it's called Finger Ease.
Yeah, it's like a roll-on.
1508
01:58:18,671 --> 01:58:23,279
So I just need it on one string.
God, I'm being picky today.
1509
01:58:24,636 --> 01:58:25,660
Amy!
1510
01:58:28,139 --> 01:58:29,959
Will you guys, like...
1511
01:58:30,100 --> 01:58:33,456
Will you and Janet and everybody
that I know sit in the front
1512
01:58:33,603 --> 01:58:35,332
so I can look at you?
1513
01:58:35,480 --> 01:58:37,880
Cos I hate strangers.
1514
01:58:38,733 --> 01:58:41,088
One, two, three.
1515
01:58:47,617 --> 01:58:49,187
Thank you.
1516
01:58:52,997 --> 01:58:54,567
Any requests?
1517
01:58:54,707 --> 01:58:56,982
- Teen Spirit.
- Sliver.
1518
01:58:57,127 --> 01:58:59,322
Drain You.
1519
01:59:00,463 --> 01:59:01,737
Serve the Servants.
1520
01:59:01,881 --> 01:59:05,362
Remember the little black bird
on Davey and Goliath?
1521
01:59:05,510 --> 01:59:06,613
The little what?
1522
01:59:06,761 --> 01:59:09,161
Black bird on Davey and Goliath
singing Kumbaya.
1523
01:59:09,305 --> 01:59:11,250
No, I don't remember
the little bird.
1524
01:59:11,391 --> 01:59:14,713
Remember that really evil episode
where he was really mad at this kid
1525
01:59:14,853 --> 01:59:17,003
and he had all these visions
of how he was going to...
1526
01:59:17,147 --> 01:59:19,502
"First, I'm going to
take him up to a hill
1527
01:59:19,649 --> 01:59:23,176
and tie him to a tree
and tar and feather him!"
1528
01:59:23,319 --> 01:59:26,516
It was evil.
That wasn't Christian at all!
1529
01:59:45,091 --> 01:59:49,323
What else should I be?
1530
01:59:49,470 --> 01:59:52,450
All apologies
1531
01:59:53,850 --> 01:59:56,956
What else should I say?
1532
01:59:58,229 --> 02:00:01,335
Everyone is gay
1533
02:00:02,650 --> 02:00:05,801
What else should I write?
1534
02:00:07,030 --> 02:00:09,976
I don't have the right
1535
02:00:11,409 --> 02:00:14,310
What else should I be?
1536
02:00:15,830 --> 02:00:19,186
All apologies
1537
02:00:21,336 --> 02:00:23,406
In the sun
1538
02:00:23,546 --> 02:00:27,323
In the sun I feeI as one
1539
02:00:27,926 --> 02:00:33,080
In the sun
1540
02:00:33,223 --> 02:00:35,373
Married
1541
02:00:37,852 --> 02:00:40,047
Buried
1542
02:00:42,273 --> 02:00:44,173
Married
1543
02:00:46,736 --> 02:00:48,806
Buried
1544
02:00:48,947 --> 02:00:51,017
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
1545
02:00:59,916 --> 02:01:03,417
All in all is all we are
1546
02:01:03,560 --> 02:01:07,867
All in all is all we are
1547
02:01:07,973 --> 02:01:12,096
All in all is all we are
1548
02:01:12,232 --> 02:01:16,502
All in all is all we are
1549
02:01:16,779 --> 02:01:21,005
All in all is all we are
1550
02:01:21,265 --> 02:01:25,516
All in all is all we are
1551
02:01:25,665 --> 02:01:29,940
All in all is all we are
1552
02:01:30,307 --> 02:01:34,492
All in all is all we are
1553
02:01:35,114 --> 02:01:38,443
All in all is all we are
1554
02:01:38,478 --> 02:01:41,101
- What do you want?
- I don't know.
1555
02:01:41,249 --> 02:01:43,319
Do you want to go
play someplace?
1556
02:01:43,459 --> 02:01:46,189
- Yeah.
- What do you want to do?
1557
02:01:46,337 --> 02:01:49,067
I'm gonna play tape recorders.
1558
02:01:59,142 --> 02:02:01,622
- Frances?
- Christmas Day, 1993.
1559
02:02:01,769 --> 02:02:03,964
Frances Bean Cobain.
1560
02:02:05,815 --> 02:02:08,545
I'm thirsty.
1561
02:02:11,362 --> 02:02:13,637
Yabba dabba doo!
1562
02:02:13,781 --> 02:02:15,806
This is nice!
1563
02:02:16,743 --> 02:02:19,598
Johnny Rotten, Leonard Cohen,
Led Zeppelin and the Beatles.
1564
02:02:19,746 --> 02:02:21,065
That's you.
1565
02:02:22,790 --> 02:02:24,610
Did you say Bob Dylan?
1566
02:02:24,751 --> 02:02:28,824
You don't tell stories the way he does,
but... I mean...
1567
02:02:28,963 --> 02:02:30,908
You mean, like this?
1568
02:02:31,215 --> 02:02:35,788
Every... now and then...
1569
02:02:35,928 --> 02:02:39,329
things I know about.
1570
02:02:40,433 --> 02:02:41,752
Seen it, done it.
1571
02:02:45,480 --> 02:02:48,381
I feel kind of happy right now.
1572
02:02:48,524 --> 02:02:50,094
Yeah, I do, too.
1573
02:02:52,987 --> 02:02:55,933
We're all sensitive to
ridicule and shame.
1574
02:02:56,657 --> 02:03:00,104
But it seemed to me,
having gone through his materials,
1575
02:03:00,244 --> 02:03:03,395
that he was hyper-sensitive,
1576
02:03:03,539 --> 02:03:05,359
felt criticism, felt praise,
1577
02:03:05,500 --> 02:03:08,105
felt things a little more intensely.
1578
02:03:08,252 --> 02:03:11,278
Probably.
You know, he was so sensitive
1579
02:03:11,422 --> 02:03:16,997
that one time that I thought about
cheating on him, he fucking must...
1580
02:03:17,136 --> 02:03:18,956
he must have been
psychic or something.
1581
02:03:19,097 --> 02:03:22,419
I thought about it.
I didn't do it, but I thought about it.
1582
02:03:22,558 --> 02:03:24,253
You never cheated on Kurt?
1583
02:03:24,394 --> 02:03:26,589
No, but I almost did one time,
and he knew it.
1584
02:03:26,729 --> 02:03:28,503
And I don't know
how he knew it.
1585
02:03:28,648 --> 02:03:30,422
I have no idea how he knew it.
1586
02:03:30,566 --> 02:03:34,889
I didn't... the plan didn't
ever go anywhere.
1587
02:03:35,029 --> 02:03:37,509
So, it was just...
nothing happened,
1588
02:03:37,657 --> 02:03:41,860
but I was tired and I am...
1589
02:03:42,279 --> 02:03:44,870
And... I... I'm not...
1590
02:03:44,956 --> 02:03:47,481
I wasn't as monogamous
as he is.
1591
02:03:47,625 --> 02:03:51,209
I'm a big flirt.
So, I flirt with chairs.
1592
02:03:51,337 --> 02:03:53,658
But I never,
never cheated on him.
1593
02:03:53,798 --> 02:03:56,824
But I certainly thought about it
one time in London.
1594
02:03:57,385 --> 02:03:58,955
And I could've done it.
1595
02:03:59,095 --> 02:04:00,697
And the...
1596
02:04:00,955 --> 02:04:05,541
the response to it was... um,
he took 67 Rohypnols
1597
02:04:05,576 --> 02:04:09,045
and ended up in a coma because
I thought about cheating on him.
1598
02:04:09,188 --> 02:04:11,383
I mean, fuck!
You're kidding.
1599
02:04:12,692 --> 02:04:15,889
I didn't even make
the phone call to do it.
1600
02:04:16,028 --> 02:04:19,634
So why do you think he chose
that night to try to take his life?
1601
02:04:19,782 --> 02:04:21,636
Was it because he felt rejected?
1602
02:04:22,910 --> 02:04:27,643
I think he would see it more as
like severe betrayal than rejection,
1603
02:04:27,790 --> 02:04:29,234
you know what I mean?
1604
02:04:51,814 --> 02:04:54,760
My girl, my girl
1605
02:04:54,901 --> 02:04:57,973
Don't lie to me
1606
02:04:58,112 --> 02:05:03,015
Tell me where did
you sleep last night?
1607
02:05:04,118 --> 02:05:07,440
In the pines, in the pines
1608
02:05:07,580 --> 02:05:10,686
Where the sun
don't ever shine
1609
02:05:10,833 --> 02:05:16,066
I would shiver the
whole night through
1610
02:05:17,882 --> 02:05:20,658
My girl, my girl
1611
02:05:20,801 --> 02:05:23,873
Where will you go?
1612
02:05:24,013 --> 02:05:29,133
I'm going where the
cold wind blows
1613
02:05:30,728 --> 02:05:33,834
In the pines, in the pines
1614
02:05:33,981 --> 02:05:37,303
Where the sun
don't ever shine
1615
02:05:37,443 --> 02:05:42,346
I would shiver the
whole night through
1616
02:05:43,991 --> 02:05:49,720
Her husband was
a hard-working man
1617
02:05:50,221 --> 02:05:55,814
Just about a
mile from here
1618
02:05:57,338 --> 02:06:03,291
His head was found
in a driving wheel
1619
02:06:03,593 --> 02:06:09,244
But his body never
was found
1620
02:06:10,726 --> 02:06:13,832
My girl, my girl
1621
02:06:13,980 --> 02:06:17,131
Don't lie to me
1622
02:06:17,275 --> 02:06:22,303
Tell me where did
you sleep last night?
1623
02:06:23,906 --> 02:06:27,137
In the pines, in the pines
1624
02:06:27,285 --> 02:06:30,482
Where the sun
don't ever shine
1625
02:06:30,621 --> 02:06:36,392
I would shiver the
whole night through
1626
02:06:36,879 --> 02:06:40,442
My girl, my girl
1627
02:06:40,590 --> 02:06:43,741
Where will you go?
1628
02:06:43,884 --> 02:06:49,038
I'm going where the
cold wind blows
1629
02:06:50,516 --> 02:06:53,838
In the pines, in the pines
1630
02:06:53,978 --> 02:06:57,050
Where the sun don't shine
1631
02:06:57,189 --> 02:07:01,262
I'd shiver
1632
02:07:02,111 --> 02:07:04,682
The whole
1633
02:07:06,782 --> 02:07:07,967
Night...
1634
02:07:08,089 --> 02:07:11,439
through
1635
02:07:11,549 --> 02:07:14,644
through
1636
02:07:44,403 --> 02:07:46,132
Thank you.
1637
02:08:17,895 --> 02:08:20,216
Ain't it a shame to go
fishing on a Sunday
1638
02:08:20,356 --> 02:08:22,301
Ain't it a shame?
1639
02:08:22,441 --> 02:08:24,511
Ain't it a shame to go
fishing on a Sunday
1640
02:08:24,652 --> 02:08:26,677
Ain't it a shame?
1641
02:08:26,821 --> 02:08:28,675
Ain't it a shame to go
fishing on a Sunday
1642
02:08:28,823 --> 02:08:31,098
When you got Monday,
Tuesday, Wednesday
1643
02:08:31,242 --> 02:08:33,062
Oh, Thursday, Friday, Saturday
1644
02:08:33,202 --> 02:08:35,147
Ain't it a shame?
1645
02:08:35,287 --> 02:08:37,232
Ain't it a shame to have
a drink on a Sunday
1646
02:08:37,373 --> 02:08:39,273
Ain't it a shame?
1647
02:08:39,417 --> 02:08:41,487
Ain't it a shame to have
a drink on a Sunday
1648
02:08:41,627 --> 02:08:43,652
Ain't it a shame?
1649
02:08:43,796 --> 02:08:45,696
Ain't it a shame to have
a drink on Sunday
1650
02:08:45,840 --> 02:08:48,070
When you got Monday,
Tuesday, Wednesday
1651
02:08:48,217 --> 02:08:49,912
Oh, Thursday, Friday, Saturday
1652
02:08:50,052 --> 02:08:52,084
Ain't it a shame?
1653
02:08:52,237 --> 02:08:55,848
Ain't it a shame?
1654
02:08:56,122 --> 02:09:00,985
Ain't it a shame?
1655
02:09:02,648 --> 02:09:05,128
Ain't it a shame?
1656
02:09:05,276 --> 02:09:08,803
Shame, shame, shame!
1657
02:09:49,779 --> 02:09:52,009
Load up on guns
1658
02:09:52,156 --> 02:09:53,851
Bring your friends
1659
02:09:53,991 --> 02:09:57,973
It's fun to lose
and to pretend
1660
02:09:58,120 --> 02:10:02,318
She's over-bored
and self-assured
1661
02:10:02,458 --> 02:10:06,229
Oh no,
I know a dirty word
1662
02:10:06,296 --> 02:10:10,239
Hello, hello, hello,
how low?
1663
02:10:10,423 --> 02:10:14,168
Hello, hello, hello,
how low?
1664
02:10:14,384 --> 02:10:18,555
Hello, hello, hello,
how low?
1665
02:10:18,588 --> 02:10:21,459
Hello, hello, hello
1666
02:10:21,602 --> 02:10:23,422
With the lights out
1667
02:10:23,562 --> 02:10:25,541
It's less dangerous
1668
02:10:25,689 --> 02:10:27,589
Here we are now
1669
02:10:27,733 --> 02:10:29,633
Entertain us
1670
02:10:29,777 --> 02:10:31,631
I feel stupid
1671
02:10:31,779 --> 02:10:33,724
And contagious
1672
02:10:33,864 --> 02:10:35,764
Here we are now
1673
02:10:35,908 --> 02:10:37,808
Entertain us
1674
02:10:37,952 --> 02:10:39,726
A mulatto
1675
02:10:39,870 --> 02:10:41,770
An albino
1676
02:10:41,914 --> 02:10:43,859
A mosquito
1677
02:10:43,999 --> 02:10:47,230
My libido, yeah!
1678
02:10:48,420 --> 02:10:49,569
Hey
1679
02:10:52,383 --> 02:10:54,078
Hey
1680
02:11:26,542 --> 02:11:28,487
With the lights out
1681
02:11:28,627 --> 02:11:30,481
It's less dangerous
1682
02:11:30,629 --> 02:11:32,483
Here we are now
1683
02:11:32,631 --> 02:11:34,531
Entertain us
1684
02:11:34,675 --> 02:11:36,575
I feel stupid
1685
02:11:36,719 --> 02:11:38,539
And contagious
1686
02:11:38,679 --> 02:11:40,624
Here we are now
1687
02:11:40,764 --> 02:11:42,538
Entertain us
1688
02:11:42,683 --> 02:11:44,628
A mulatto
1689
02:11:44,768 --> 02:11:46,542
An albino
1690
02:11:46,687 --> 02:11:48,666
A mosquito
1691
02:11:48,814 --> 02:11:50,668
My libido
1692
02:11:50,816 --> 02:11:52,461
A denial
1693
02:11:52,688 --> 02:11:54,476
A denial
1694
02:11:54,742 --> 02:11:56,489
A denial
1695
02:11:56,751 --> 02:11:58,704
A denial
1696
02:11:58,965 --> 02:12:00,852
A denial
1697
02:12:00,991 --> 02:12:02,817
A denial
1698
02:12:02,953 --> 02:12:04,696
A denial
1699
02:12:04,854 --> 02:12:06,721
A denial
1700
02:12:07,059 --> 02:12:11,533
A denial
1701
02:12:12,051 --> 02:12:17,983
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